The Mirage

I am forbidden to dream
For in dreams my repressed thoughts come alive
The thoughts I forget, leave, banish
Are the only thoughts I can entertain
I am forbidden to dream
For in my dreams anything can happen
Yet nothing can happen
I am entitled to dream
For in dreams my repressed thoughts come alive
The thoughts I covet, idolize, desire
Yet am forbidden to entertain
I am forbidden to dream
For in dreams the unacceptable, unwanted, vital
Becomes the necessary, obligatory, repulsive
I am forbidden to dream
For I am better than these thoughts
The repressed vulgarity in which I lather
Here the oppressed can become the expressed
And I can finally get everything I need
I am entitled to dream
It is only here my dark desires average
And my malicious ways accepted
Only in my subconscious state is
Betrayal, lust, cruelty
To loyalty, love, compassion
For there is nothing I can do without judgement
 yet I can not do nothing in good judgement
I am forbidden to dream
For a place where my hysteria is sanctioned
Is the place I dare not linger
For it is you all my dreams revolve
And that is most forbidden