Missing the dead

Crazy writing!!!!

Praying for you now

Hahahhahahhaha love ya!

Hey if you think prayers will help me go for it lol
And Is it crazy ?  I think it's sad my father's dead. Ive lived a crazy life that's for sure lol

I never had one and the one I though was my father was not.

I was raised by my stepfather great guy.

Love ya brother and prayers don't save just help sometimes.

Well I mean having a step dad is like having a father lol ..I went to foster care after idk a bunch of shit went down .then 7 years later with my mom who was a junkie at that point.. childhood wasn't fun for me...but thanks for the love that's something i need

Man foster care is horrible i am crying now. You know buddy i want to bless me so much to be able to change that system and come up with a solution. Man you don't know what foster care means to me. I am for real in tears now man. There is no a coincidence we are chatting here. No way man! My dream is to have another kid i am 39 now but i only want one more because i want to adopt and have a place for the foster kids.

Now i love you even more and God God is with you as he has always being.

I was rapped, abused in my young age, Cuba is piece of shit that government buddy fucked my life. I was involve even in prostitution my mother allowed that and i was 16.

I got screwed in my head because i fell in love with a guy that never though he deserved my love. He cheated he fucked a girl and got her pregnant he was forced to marry her. I tried to kill myself two times man. God was always there when i though was not God anymore.

Man what can i said?
I received the Lord in 2004 and even knowing the word i became religious as fuck living a life of lies. Married to a man that i moved on just to leave my house. My mother and stepfather always fighting i had no peace fuck bro! I came to USA i escaped the island in a very small boat with my mother and another 20 people. I was in a military base for almost a year living in a tent and when we finally arrived here my only aunt told me you can live in my house for a month. I was 18 i worked my buttoff and i moved to a small condo with my mother and stepfather that left the island first and was in Guantamo Bay when we arrived. I had two jobs and full time at school. I only finish 12 grade i wanted to study law. Thanks God i never made it because my attorneys friend don't have a life angry and bitching always i am talking about the successful ones you know. Successful in business love failures like me at this point ( thats going to change buddy i have faith ) relationships man i don't even want to go that way but i will only tell you that all men in my life yes cool guys cute and good in bed but but all the same. no passion for progress always behind my butt and i don't have a big one believe me. So all my breakout where for the same. Poor minds will never conquer my heart never they drag me down. I am not a gold digger okay don't take me wrong but i am praying to God that my soulmate is a King with a Kingdom mentality that's all.

Love ya.

I don't look at you any different.but I'm sorry that happened to you . Seems we both are broken I hope you find a good man

I don't want a good man. There is not such a thing. I want man that fears God and thats mother fucking hard to find.

I will not find him he will find me. God will bring him just in his time. I am not in a hurry as a matter of fact i will not fuck the guy until we get marry. No one that know me believes that but no one i know believe in love the way i do.

I think we should do a collaboration call Our life's struggle hahahahahahah

Lol a collaboration is a possibility

*Wow* ... just wow ... Sir Hell ~ and regardless of the handle ~ there`s some good conscious in you ... a great thing, don`t ever forget ... ~xo, Devlin  

Thanks I'm honored you like it..your a very talented writer

As are you ... thank you;)