Naw we can't be friends

Hello old friend,its me.. haven't spoken to you since I decided to leave.

I remember how close we used to be,
Good friends since I was young...only 16.

Spent many days and long nights together,
You kept me warm in the coldest winters ever.
Kept me up when life knocked me down,
Numbed my feelings when the pain came around.
 
Made me blind to the reality I didn't want to see,kept me from being the best me that I can be.

Lowered my guard,self respect and self esteem
Clouded my judgment,
took my will ,my hopes and dreams
Stealing all that mattered and was important to me.

Lost my home, my kids...
Snatched up so quick...
Clinging to a man who treated me like shit,
But all I cared about was my next hit,
Wandering around with you tucked in my tits.
 
Waiting for a stranger to pay me to hit.doing dirty deeds to make Sho we don't split.

Inseparable was what we seemed.
But now the day has come! and now today im clean.

 You had such a strong hold,clenched tight you wouldn't let go.
so I pryed myself free, ran away to go love me.

Worked so hard to learn myself,
Tried everyday to change myself..
Making goals,and seeking helps,being honest with myself.
 Not giving up when things get hard is what carried me this far.

 Slowly gaining back things iv lost....now I realize how much you've cost.
I got my daughter and first born son.
living life on life's terms.

Now I know that it is my turn,this 2nd chance is one IV earned.

So this is it ?!?!..,Goodbye!... I quit!!!...
No longer your friend.I'm not meths bitch.