Anxiety and Panic disorder

I feel broken and scared don't know what to do,
I've  been trapped by an illness i just cant get through,
The fear and the panic thats constantly there,
In my mind every day i darent go any were,
I try take control feeling positive this time,
But once again im defeated by this illness of mine,
Slowly it breaks you till your confidence has gone,
your isolated and trapped away from everyone,
To many cancelled appointments and friends iv let down,
Trapped in this illnes were i slowly drown,
Cant even explain they will think that im weak,
For being scared to go out they will think im a freak,
Enough is enough i cant fight this no more,
Its gotten so bad i can no longer ignore,
Sat here in tears thinking id rather die,
Than to live life in fear when all iv done is try.....