Procrastination

I want to feel weightless,
but I am so complacent,
I wait with no patience,
want change but remain like a station,
I procrastinated problems into creation
I got masks to hide I am jaded,
I hate that I fake it,
Hate that i waste this,
I got no destination,
very few obligations,
but I barely balance between those,
Basically no cares shown,
told to 'grow the fuck up'
I do care, but I am stuck,
I don't blame luck,
I made it this way,
I need to regain momentum,
stick to an agenda,
Hopes and dreams mean nothing if i neglect them,
Self respect is easier if I move in the right direction,
No more questioning reflections,
No more self deception,
I move onto to the next one,
I have had enough recollection..