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Post breakup thoughts
I wish to stop trying to appear interesting to new people
I am not, none of us are
Life begins and ends again every day
within our hollow eyes
I will not try to solicit your respect
I do not want to waste my breath
Yes, I am letting my bitterness speak for me today
But I agree
I will write out my anxieties,
drink gross alcohol because it's available,
eat excessively and refuse to shower
I will not think of where I'd take someone on a date,
what I'm looking for in a fuckbuddy,
or what it means to recover from letting go
Click, click, click
I can't decide if connection is more draining
than accepting temporary loneliness
I don't want to ask for help
because therapy takes money
And getting out takes time
Click, click, click
Tick, tick, tick, tick
Christ they were beautiful
Isn't anger beautiful?
Isn't it beautiful that I'm angry?
Emotion is an opportunity
Numbness would mean death
Click, click, click
I used to be happy in the month of March
Can euphoria be calculated, predicted?
Can I write out a blueprint
to make every day the best of my life,
to make rejection cute?
I have free food today
I don't need euphoria
Not at all
Click.
I am not, none of us are
Life begins and ends again every day
within our hollow eyes
I will not try to solicit your respect
I do not want to waste my breath
Yes, I am letting my bitterness speak for me today
But I agree
I will write out my anxieties,
drink gross alcohol because it's available,
eat excessively and refuse to shower
I will not think of where I'd take someone on a date,
what I'm looking for in a fuckbuddy,
or what it means to recover from letting go
Click, click, click
I can't decide if connection is more draining
than accepting temporary loneliness
I don't want to ask for help
because therapy takes money
And getting out takes time
Click, click, click
Tick, tick, tick, tick
Christ they were beautiful
Isn't anger beautiful?
Isn't it beautiful that I'm angry?
Emotion is an opportunity
Numbness would mean death
Click, click, click
I used to be happy in the month of March
Can euphoria be calculated, predicted?
Can I write out a blueprint
to make every day the best of my life,
to make rejection cute?
I have free food today
I don't need euphoria
Not at all
Click.
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