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i do not know what i want to say
i do not know what i want to write
oh we all have been there
we all know
something to come pouring out from the inside
not intricate words
just...
the feeling
the motion
the silence
the thought
the need
the desire
oh i need you
why ? the endless why
the endless spinning of mind
the unfair affair
i wish
i ask
i dream of what i need
i imagine i had all that i need
no mystical story
no charming personality
just what i feel
i sing
i dance
i enjoy
but i feel no joy
i breathe out
run and scatter
i am sorry
i try my best
i do not understand why beeing the way i am
is a problem
i would die for
i cry for
a bit
of what feels
to me
a justice
should come for free