Resisting

 Sitting down in my room I start to resist everything.
Resisting sleep, resisting to socialize and resisting to come out.
I'm thinking about everything.
Past comes to my mind.
[font=Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Grande]S[/font]hit.
Music is my rescue, the lyrics take me away from reality
Sky high in a way until the flashbacks hit.
Falling. I'm like Alice down the rabbit hole.
Screaming as I fall to Rock bottom as everything Surrounds me.
Musics gone, I'm just laying there. As I gasp to catch my breath the scenery changes.
I'm in an ocean. I see the light above me. Trying to swim up I get pulled down. The memories come back everything fading to black.
I sit up finally back in my room.
Realizing what happened the tears start falling. Not being being able to stop it I curl up in a ball.
The thoughts and memories stop. Everything ends. The pains still there, the marks are still there,...