I Will Heal

I was better at lying
than telling the truth


I have regrets from
yesterday and now



I've seen my brothers and
sisters drown


Held underwater with their
arms up high


I spent countless nights
with a monster at my side


Days writing numbers and
drawing pictures in pen


Minutes with a lot on my mind
Decades of lost time


Hours of never leaving my bed
and the stench of smoke on skin


My body, my garbage
was out on display


It was one man's treasure
and another mind of pleasure


Still a child in the womb
I cast my anchor and ascend


Nothing to say
and a lot to show


The first cry
a new mother's lullaby


Second cry, a father's awakening
A being yearning for a fit of shaking


A bible with a thousand words
A child with a lot to learn


A teacher with a few mistakes
A mentor that raised the stakes


Winter with no snow
Summer without a glow


Young girl becomes a queen
Takes the title king


A woman who went through pain
Waits for the next daylight gain


Someone who is loved but never trusted
Is the human exception


A person with a name
Should be treated all the same


A smile that took a long mile
A frown that shattered to the ground


A life full of stress
Is mine and only mine


A heart with signs of scarification
still beating with perfection


My skin and eyes with shards of glass
My flawless flaws of the generation


I will heal
I've done before


I will heal
Even when I kneel


On the cold tile floor


I will heal
Because that is my spirit and
mind's ultimate deal