3 a.m. and 24 yrs

How amazing it is...that which is most deeply felt, for me is the most difficult thing to say. So it's around 3 a.m. and 24 yrs since you went away...and I'm still wishing you were here. Unanticipatedly awakened, sitting up on the side of the lumpy bed...DAZED...as if rudely aroused from drunken slumber. Pleasant thoughts by the millions, unpleasant ones as well invade my head. A veil of darkness hangs in the air...and the sounds of deafening silence permeates the room. 24 yrs...and I sit here, just thinking...24 yrs and here I am still waking up crying tears. My heart so heavy...like a hardback book of recorded memories, pages upon pages...yellowed with age and infused with all living thoughts of you. Writings of wonderful yesterdays...bound tightly with affection...with devotion. A limited edition never to EVER be forgotten. And so it's around 3 a.m. and 24 yrs since you went away...and I still wish you were here...especially today.