struggle again

How selfish can some body be who wishes away there days,
There's people who don't have a choice then me with my pathetic ways,
My neice is the sun iin my sky who keeps me going on,
she's the reason I have to live and the reason I am strong,
I don't deserve my family aprreciation I never show,
I make no effort to love them or any effort to make them know,
To sunk and lost in my own depression,
My weakness won and taught me a lesson,
A life I have that I shouldn't of been given,
When there's ill ones who need it who makes the most of living,
I'm here by accident that iv made my self think,
Why else all this hurt that's making life sink,
I'm done with fighting I'm not taking no more,
Lifes getting darker can't get worser am sure....