IN HOPES OF SO BECOMING        

Write on....you will get there oin.

strider

Thank you S.!...

- oin

"I too lie in wait for the suns warm touch" - many can relate to that, especially in the poor spring weather England's had.

Thanks for your comment S._S.,  
 
  yeah, I can imagine how much you might crave the sun's prolonged touch, esp. considering England's fairly notorious weather!...  
 
  I believe any & all forms of life (at least those that are truly alive, breathing, with a pulse & 'awake')are compelled by nature to do the same!...  
  & I'd also imagine that 'Seasonal Affective Disorder' (aka - 'S.A.D.'), knows no geographic boundaries, nor 'species' boundaries either!...  So my guess is, this inner longing to be held & warmed by the sun's loving rays, is a universal, natural  instinct & a characteristic, innate trait of being alive on planet earth!...  
 
  Thanks again for your response!...  
 
- OIN

Thanks for your comments SoulidifiedJourney!...  I believe "we 'ALL' are" & that we each from time to time , due to infinite circumstances in our lives, fall off into episodic lapses & sometimes lasting states of 'forgetting' & then sooner or later something will stimulate, inspire or trigger us back into 'remembering' who we truly are (the 'bigger picture' & ALL), until we next slip off again, back into even more 'forgetting'... (but such is life!)

  Although individually, it all greatly varies, whereas some may be in state of 'remembering' most all the time & others may be & stay stuck in 'forgetting' most of the time & then of course, there are other states of being & virtually everything in between...

  The problem & reality though seems to be, there are SO MANY here on our earth at this time (over 7 billion of us!), who may never wake up & it's mostly their own personal choice (of free will)!  And the miracle & beauty of this thing called 'waking up' (&/or 'remembering'), is that it can happen & be triggered by either something profoundly beautiful & awesomely overwhelming in nature, or from a simple act of human kindness or compassion, or it might even be triggered from something as seemingly insignificant & unimportant, as catching a brief glimpse of the sun's first rays of early morning light, penetrating & illumining, like a golden diamond, a miniscule drop of morning dew, dangling off a blade of grass or a leaf!...

  Thanks again for your thoughts & words here & your own 'connection' as well!...

 - OIN  

I was for many years & still am to much less a degree than before, the very same way!...  Just trust that you can too & 'YOU WILL' (sooner or later, inevitably be able to see that you can even now!...  It's really only a matter of being patient with yourself (& your inner-muse) & then simply 'LETTING GO' of all your fears, doubts, frustrations, expectations & desires to be anything 'other' or 'more' than who your own very special inner-most true self already is!  Just 'allow' & 'intend' your mind & ego to move out of the way & your own true natures elegant voice will gradually (or maybe even suddenly & surprisingly!!??!!) begin to emerge & speak all that which your deepest, purest, clearest heart & spirit already 'see', 'feel', 'intuit' & 'know' & then there you are & you may most likely be & find yourself simultaneously amazed, inspired, baffled & truly mystified at the truly mysterious & even mystical wonder of that new-found inner re-connection to that boundless source of all possibilities, which lie dormant in the center of us all, until we dare to summon & invite it's resurfacing to come play with us & guide us whenever we sincerely need & want it to!...

  * (Gee, I hope all that which I just said here, wasn't too much or added even more to any confusion or anxiety you might have had over that which you already mentioned to me in your last comment?...  I don't even know where all the contents of my spontaneous comment here just now came from, or what exactly it was trying to say?...  Whoa... wait a minute, I take that all back, because I just realized I "DO" know where it all came from & what it is trying to say...  It is literally a perfect example 'in action' of that mysterious 'OTHER', more knowing, clear voice of inner-most intuitive clarity & direction within me (as it also is in you & everyone!), which was expressing itself (completely & automatically over-riding my own mind's usual, 'normal'-->("ELK!!!"... I hate that word!!!) way of thinking & communicating!), which spilled out 'whatever' (?) all it just said (I don't have a clue here presently, I'll have to go back & re-read (proof-read) it, to see if I can decipher any relative meaning or applicable relevance out of it's sudden purge, that might also be pertinent for me to hear, consider, understand & possibly even apply?!)...

  I am a fairly slow & error-prone typist...(always!), but as all the previous content of my replies comments to you here were coming out, I was keenly aware & amazed at how abnormally & unbelievably fast (so much faster than I have ever typed before... without having to constantly slow down & correct very frequent typos!!??!!) my fingers were flying, as if my hands & fingers had become possessed by some other, much more clear & confident inner force, that (quite a bit more unlike me) seemed to know exactly what it wanted to express, during those fairly strange & freaky, lightning quick moments 'it' apparently stepped in & more or less took over... just snatched the keys right out of my hands, through my hands!!!???...

  In retrospect, it feels to me now very similar to what I've heard for years referred to as 'Channelling'...(???!!!???)...  - Who knows?!...  In any case, the only other thing can compare the sustained feeling to that I experienced many years ago as a teen, was whenever I would use the 'Ouija' board (my parents got for me one Christmas) with friends or family & the way the indicator device with the 3 little felt-padded feet & the circular, clear plastic window with the tiny little nail hanging down from it's center, would mysteriously & wondrously move (slowly & very quickly at times) about, all over the lettered & numbered, "YES" & "NO" board, to spell out it's supposedly Spirit-'Channelled' answers to the challenging & often creepy questions we would ask it to test it & everyone would swear that none of us were putting any pressure on it with our fingertips, or trying to guide it ourselves!!!???...  Anyway, that is pretty much the same feeling I was feeling during 'that' part of my comments earlier here!...  Interestingly though, even though 'it's' words were coming out almost too fast for me to read, at the same time I seemed to be hearing whatever it was trying to say as my fingers typed it's words out & I sensed some vague resonance of truth & honesty in it's sudden rush!?!...

  Not that I think all this possible phenomena is all that important here, but I 'DO' feel & believe that whatever the contents of those comments were & 'are' (after I go back I check them out myself...as I'm very curious now!), that they are probably fairly important & must make some kind of 'wise' (more open minded), constructive sense, no matter however strange or peculiar they may at first sound... (sort of like dream interpretation perhaps...symbolism & all?!)...

  Anyway, enough of all this...  I had only first intended to reply to your last comments to me with a very brief response, which upon reading your comments, immediately & fairly clearly came into my mind, but then after just getting started in my attempt to do that, all this 'OTHER' thing suddenly 'took over' & transpired!!!...  But regardless, it is done now (whatever 'we' might make of it) & I only want to add here at last, that my initial intention & sincere desire, was only to offer you some heartfelt encouragement & optimistic support, so I hope that whatever beyond that, which came out here, in addition to or instead(?), did not inadvertently & completely derail my initial intention & if it did, then I can only hope that it did a much better job of advising & providing that intended encouragement & optimistic support than I would have achieved, if I had been given a better, or even half a chance!!!???!!!...  *(the 'Twilight Zone's' old T.V. theme song's music would be most fitting here right about now!!!! - lol  
 
Oh well...
 
  - much Love & Light to you 'Soulid'!...
 
     ~  OIN