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"Temptations"

My lord my god please forgive me for having these wicked thoughts-
my mind is clouded by all these damn demons,they not me is at fault-
why why why do they haunt me so?
why why why won't they just let my soul go?
they know my weaknesses all too well-
they keep pushing my buttons,tempting me,natas wants me in hell-
my lord i've fallen time and time again-
my lord my god please forgive me of this sin-
i wanna do right by you all the days of my life-
i'm so sick and tired of livin' with this strife-
i hear you say you have a plan for each one of us-
my lord my mentality is short just like that of a handicap bus-
i want to know what is it i'm to accomplish in this life on this earth-
all the hardships i've seen and dealt with,i regret them all,even my birth-
i know i shouldn't think that way,that's natas infiltrating my mind-
i feel him within me,his grip on my soul is hella tight time after time-
i have a major problem here my lord my god,that i can't seem to shake-
natas may have my mind in a knot,but my heart he can't take-
it's full of love,it's full of compassion,it's full of remorse-
natas shall never have my heart,not now,not even when i'm a corpse-
i see things that drive me to insanity,i see things that make me destroy me-
things of pleasure that later cause pain,things that hurt my immortality-
i dwell on the life i lived from the dayz of wayback when i was thuggin'-
the life i lived was that of a soul who was never thinkin' of lovin'-
i was heartless,i was ruthless,i was perverted beyond every point-
i was a drunk,i was a womanizer,all i cared about was smokin' many a joint-
'97 was the year i accepted thy lord jesus into my life and heart-
since '97 i've allowed natas to influence me to sin more within' my heart-
i've not only shamed you my lord,i've shamed myself,i've disgraced-
i feel unworthy of life,i feel the conflict within myself,soul misplaced-
why did i do this to myself? why can't i dig myself out from this hellish pit?
my inner vision is so clouded i can't see anything positive,no way to change it-
show me the way lord,show me the way to paradise-
take me to that heavenly place,wipe these tears from my saddened eyes-
lead me away from all this madness i've inflicted upon my soul-
my lord my god when i die,only you will snatch my soul and never let go-
from the lips my god breathed life into,i have complete faith & love in you-
jesus and only jesus can save my soul,he is my eternal salvation-
all i can say is "i'm anxious for the day my lord takes me away from all these temptations."
Written by jmerrick73
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