Teacup

For my illustration for this song I decided to use this photo I took of me using my webcam and to which I added a super pretty background that really brings out my doll-like look in the pic. As a result, it goes perfectly with my song! :D

Nice song, Jessica, hope you feel better soon.

Oh I am, and writing this song made me feel better lots and lots dear Grace my dear friend forever! Something changed in my life today, something so beautiful and wonderful I can't put it into words. But I'm starting to feel all happy again because of it and I'm the happiest girl in the whole world right now! And I feel like spreading the love and happiness to every corner of the cosmos! I'd be like a cosmic Polyanna sorta and that'd be cool. A galactic "Glad Girl"! Wonder if there's like a job vacancy for that? Anyhoooo, I'm not a broken teacup anymore but I'm coming back together again and smiling lots!!!! :D

No, not broken ever. Your strength is tremendous, be happy and I am happy with you.

I am happy indeed once more Grace! And my dear one has been helping to restore my formerly shattered psyche. Today he tells me that I am once more like unto the Jessica that he remembers, and I feel a lot of my old strength returning to me. Traumas in life can something bring you near to breaking... but as a warrior queen, I do not break so easily. And yes, my dear old friend, the warrior queen is coming back at last! She wasn't really gone, just pushed aside when my child-side came out due to the horrible things I recently endured. But my dear one has helped me to synthesize the two facet of my being into a more harmonious whole, and as a result I feel amazing. Like my old self again! Only better.

Nice job--lots of emotions swirling in your teacup!  :) Chin up, and on you go!

Oh, thanks so much MadameLavender (pretty name by the way!) that was so sweet of you to post such a nice comment on my song. Made me feel all cheerful reading that! I'm finding my old wings again, and before you know it I'll be soaring. So yeah, I'm keeping my chin up, standing tall and laughing, singing, and dancing (and skipping around too!) again. :D

(I love your dress Jessica)
Nice way to use 'teacups' in a poem! :D well done.

Thank you, Angel! I once had a doll named Teacup in fact just like it says in the song and she had red hair (just like my one wig there) and a white dress not unlike the one I am wearing in that photo also. She was broken when I was a child under very traumatic circumstances, so I often use her as a metaphor for traumatic events in my life that I am working through. I survived some terrible times lately, and had to rebuild my psyche from pieces almost... just like a broken doll... but it seems I was not as broken as I had feared and my old strength and fire is returning unto me. Thanks to someone special in my life, and thanks to my unquenchably fiery spirit too! :D

This is one of your finest pieces, Jessica!
Its so bright and holds in it so much Life sparkles...Glad to see you back on your two lovely feet again and you look so sweet in the pic!!!

Thanks so much, my dear and sweet big sister! I came very unbearably close to death recently during the truly worst days of some unspeakably dark tribulations in my life... but I never was one to fall into darkness without a fight and with some unexpected help I have come out of it all stronger than ever and more in touch with my inner child than I had been previously. Part of me had to grow up all over again, and quickly too after confronting some horrifying old memories and overcoming a lot of inner demons as well... but I am once more at last the Jessica I used to be before my descent into the darkness. Like the goddess Ishtar that some believe me to be, I rose up from that darkness with newfound light.
 
I am so pleased you like this song of mine too, Mourganna! Indeed, it is filled with the new light that enfuses my being now. Oh thank you too for saying I look so sweet. Your kindness is one of the most beautiful things in the universe! :D

As you describe it, Jessica dear, I felt pretty much like you did....always a strong connection between two sisters...smiles...

This poem has such a musical vibe to it, I almost sang it out loud as I read it. Then I realized how sad parts of it were, but also then it got kind of like a triumph in places, like you went through something unbelievably awful but you came out of it stronger somehow. Sibyl told me that when you were like a year younger than me, you got put in a really bad program that was run by evil people who did terrible things to you and to your mind. Or they tried to anyway. I can't imagine how you survived something like that, and I'll bet that's what you're really writing about here. Call me the girl genius, but I have a way of figuring out riddles if I get all the pieces that need putting together. I hope you keep on smiling, and being as happy as you want yo be Kara! I'll message you some jokes later one to cheer you up too. After reading this, I just want to see you smile lots.

I did somewhat see this poem as being in a rather singsong type of manner. I would bet that you sounded very pretty singing my poem like a song! I would love to hear you sing for me sometime. It is a sad poem, and yes everything that Sybil told you about it is actually quite true. What she said of what happened to me is also true. I had to pretty much put all of myself back together from the shattered pieces that remained of me after all I had been through. And that was but one thing that I had endured in my life! There were others as well, and some even worse. But because I am strong of will I did survive all that happened to me, and I became stronger than ever when all was said and done. For me, it was not an option to leave myself broken! Nor was I willing to allow those who tried to break me, to break me completely. I was exactly twelve years old when I went through that, and since Sybil told me you are thirteen then it appears she told you correctly when it was that this happened to me. You are very much a genius, Chloe! And not just for this, but from all I have read in our conversations thus far... you are highly intelligent and capable of a great depth of understanding that a lot of other girls your age would find quite far beyond their level of thinking. That is no insult to them... but it is a great credit to you! You like riddles? That is cool, I used to love riddles years ago. I do tend to have a rather analytical mind in some ways, and certain challenges have always appealed to me. I will very much keep on smiling, if only because I know that it will make you happy if I do so. I cannot wait to read those jokes of yours! I suspect that they will cheer me up quite nicely. Chloe, how about sometime tomorrow we meet up using Skype? That way you can sing for me... and show me how you look in your new pretty dresses, and you can see me smile for you. That is how Sybil and I communicate sometimes too, since we both have webcams. Let me know if that would be possible for you to do, and we'll set it up and spend some happy time together.

Yeah, I definitely was able to have my sister set everything up. I sent you an email with all the details so we can get started on Skype as soon as I put up my next too poems on here first, which I'll be doing right after I finish replying to all your messages to me. You do sound really, really strong willed! I don't like to think a lot about super depressing things, but it was good reading this poem cuz I gave me a lot of insight into you and how much you've been through. I can't imagine some of it, but I do like it that you've made it through the other side from dark times like those. You love riddles? Then I'll have to come up with some good ones to share with you on cam later on. I've got my jokes ready too! They're as silly as I am, so I think you'll love them lots. I am wearing a dress that I know you'll adore! Wait until you see me in it, it has a matching pair of those kind of bloomers that Sybil says you think are really nice. The soft and silky kind! The whole dress is super soft though, and very, very Victorian looking too. Also, I've got my hair in a ponytail today! Since you'll be seeing me on the cam for the first time, I just really, really wanted to look amazing for you. Mom's busy in the kitchen and my sister knows better than to barge in when I'm busy with the door closed, so It'll just be you, me, and my imaginary friends. Lol

That outfit you've picked out for our time together today sounds very lovely indeed! You chose well, for sure. Those are indeed my favorite kinds of bloomers, I'm certain they look very nice on you too. I can't wait to see how you look today! I can definitely see you with a ponytail, and I love that thought. You definitely have the right kind of face for it, which is to say I think you are a very, very pretty girl indeed. I am ready for our cam time whenever you are, sweetie! I can't wait to meet all of your imaginary friends, too. *Smiles* :)