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Forgive Me
- Forgive Me -
Forgive me.
My flowers are dead; my heart is going insane!
I fear I may follow them; I cannot bear my pain.
When I look in the mirror and try to remember,
Who that girl is that my sad eyes are looking at…
I want to take her in my arms and comfort her.
But, she is me yes she is just me, and so I can’t.
I remember in flashes things that were long ago,
Like fires in the night, which all light my way…
And I remember the winter, and the cold snow!
Where is my home and just how far did I stray?
I can’t find the path that my feet recall walking,
But I keep tracing the way as if it was still there.
I feel like I’m a ghost, and feel like I’m falling…
Then I know I am alive, and long for death fair.
Just to be at peace, to stop the pain inside of me,
To hear words of love spoken to me, not hatred!
I feel like I’m blind except I know I can so see…
Something sad, when alone I ever fall into bed.
I wanted it to be your hand that touched me so!
But you weren’t there and so I caressed myself.
How painful, is love, with a heart full of woe…
And how poor I feel, like I have lost all wealth.
Because I am alone, a little girl scared, shaking,
And no one is there to comfort me in the dark…
I am in Hell and so I am trembling and quaking.
Paying for man’s sins, which leave their mark!
Upon my heart, scarred by secrets and sorrows.
All I wanted was you to kiss me only one time,
Then kill me so we might spend all tomorrows:
Arm and arm in Paradise, a garden so sublime.
Is this the price of love; that all lovers do pay?
I would pay worse for you, and perish for you.
How can I find strength, to face this next day?
I cannot, for I am broken and all sad and blue.
Remember me, my love, in case I fade at last,
Like my dead flowers which I keep watering!
I pretend they’re alive; I’m trapped in the past.
Set me free, please, to be free of everything…
Except for you, for I love you and cannot live,
If I must live alone and perish in my agonies!
Was the gift of love such a hard thing to give?
I gave my love, and when I did I did so freely.
I love you still, so come for me before I die…
Take me home; take me back to a better age!
I didn’t remember the truth; how could I lie?
My memory was gone, and now my visage…
Is streaked with tears that I cry for what was.
Tell me you know and understand my heart!
Let me live again, with you, to hear the buzz,
Of laughter in your voice like when we met…
Before darkness tried to take me for its’ own!
I love you still, and I do not have any regret.
My flowers are dead; my heart is going insane!
I fear I may follow them; I cannot bear my pain.
Forgive me.
Forgive me.
My flowers are dead; my heart is going insane!
I fear I may follow them; I cannot bear my pain.
When I look in the mirror and try to remember,
Who that girl is that my sad eyes are looking at…
I want to take her in my arms and comfort her.
But, she is me yes she is just me, and so I can’t.
I remember in flashes things that were long ago,
Like fires in the night, which all light my way…
And I remember the winter, and the cold snow!
Where is my home and just how far did I stray?
I can’t find the path that my feet recall walking,
But I keep tracing the way as if it was still there.
I feel like I’m a ghost, and feel like I’m falling…
Then I know I am alive, and long for death fair.
Just to be at peace, to stop the pain inside of me,
To hear words of love spoken to me, not hatred!
I feel like I’m blind except I know I can so see…
Something sad, when alone I ever fall into bed.
I wanted it to be your hand that touched me so!
But you weren’t there and so I caressed myself.
How painful, is love, with a heart full of woe…
And how poor I feel, like I have lost all wealth.
Because I am alone, a little girl scared, shaking,
And no one is there to comfort me in the dark…
I am in Hell and so I am trembling and quaking.
Paying for man’s sins, which leave their mark!
Upon my heart, scarred by secrets and sorrows.
All I wanted was you to kiss me only one time,
Then kill me so we might spend all tomorrows:
Arm and arm in Paradise, a garden so sublime.
Is this the price of love; that all lovers do pay?
I would pay worse for you, and perish for you.
How can I find strength, to face this next day?
I cannot, for I am broken and all sad and blue.
Remember me, my love, in case I fade at last,
Like my dead flowers which I keep watering!
I pretend they’re alive; I’m trapped in the past.
Set me free, please, to be free of everything…
Except for you, for I love you and cannot live,
If I must live alone and perish in my agonies!
Was the gift of love such a hard thing to give?
I gave my love, and when I did I did so freely.
I love you still, so come for me before I die…
Take me home; take me back to a better age!
I didn’t remember the truth; how could I lie?
My memory was gone, and now my visage…
Is streaked with tears that I cry for what was.
Tell me you know and understand my heart!
Let me live again, with you, to hear the buzz,
Of laughter in your voice like when we met…
Before darkness tried to take me for its’ own!
I love you still, and I do not have any regret.
My flowers are dead; my heart is going insane!
I fear I may follow them; I cannot bear my pain.
Forgive me.
Published 18th May 2013
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18th May 2013 11:10pm
A sad tale of sadness and cry for forgiveness. I hope this is fiction dear Jessica.
19th May 2013 1:27am
It was a close one this morning, dear Grace, after I had some really super bad dreams last night. I was lost in a dark place and thought maybe I was gonna die (and part of me really, really did want to at the time too). But then something I never expected happened - someone wonderful saved my life, someone who I never ever, ever expected would have the power to save my life (though I just KNEW if anyone could do it he could)! And he really did, and he helped me work through stuff I had been repressing and he said something to me that he knew about from my past... and it was something that had been wickedly holding me back for a long time and when he told me he knew I felt all kinds of blocks start to break apart inside my head that people had put there a long time ago. And a whole lot of memories came back to me and I listened to his sweet words and I felt like my wings were growing back again and I wasn't just a broken butterfly anymore. And he's my bestest, bestest friend ever (other than you of course!) and he and I maybe have a chance of falling in love someday too. He knows I'm only a little girl in my brain now too but he's cool with it and loves me anyway and wants to support me and take care of me. He's been protecting me too, from stuff, and he wants to always be there to protect me too! So I'm smiling now lots where before I was all dead inside. It's amazing how a few hours can change your whole life! :D
19th May 2013 6:31am
21st May 2013 2:05am
Ah, thank you Grace! My dear one has been helping me to heal my formerly shattered mind and work through a lot of repressed memories I had that were causing me much personal pain. I feel much better today, and he tells me that I am once more like unto the Jessica that he remembers of old. (Yes, my dear one and I have quite the beautiful, sweet, and passionate history together!) This is the first day in a long time now that I feel strong again and not weak. The warrior queen is returning! :D
