Submissions by jmerrick73
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my outlet for expressing my depression, my anger, my love, my hate, my dark hellish life.
SELF POEM
Published
19th Jan 2023 12:24pm
19th Jan 2023 12:24pm
BROKEN
In this cold dark world.
All i have ever seen is death and heartbreak.
Shit that i wish i never wanted to see.
But that's life.
That's all there is.
Death and fucking heartbreak.
Some people go through life without a care in this world.
I wish those same people could see what all my eye's have seen.
The cold lifeless shells of what were once a living loving person.
The saying is all so very true.
If you ever have the chance to love someone, there will be grief.
Faithful family and friends that are no longer of this world.
The...
All i have ever seen is death and heartbreak.
Shit that i wish i never wanted to see.
But that's life.
That's all there is.
Death and fucking heartbreak.
Some people go through life without a care in this world.
I wish those same people could see what all my eye's have seen.
The cold lifeless shells of what were once a living loving person.
The saying is all so very true.
If you ever have the chance to love someone, there will be grief.
Faithful family and friends that are no longer of this world.
The...
#sadness
#grief
#loneliness #emptiness
#loneliness #emptiness
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
12th Jan 2023 8:24am
12th Jan 2023 8:24am
All i want
All i want for this new year is God's forgiveness and his unconditional Love.
#God
212 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
14th Nov 2022 12:38pm
14th Nov 2022 12:38pm
MY PUNISHMENT???????
#sadness
#sex
#erotic #nonfiction
#erotic #nonfiction
272 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
19th Oct 2022 10:01pm
19th Oct 2022 10:01pm
Demented?
#illness
#nightmares
196 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
7th Oct 2022 4:10am
7th Oct 2022 4:10am
DEAR DIARY
I fkd up.
I fell in love.
Then the bitch broke my heart.
Ghosted me.
Played me.
She said she loved me.
Bitch manipulated me.
Cunt decimated me.
Sliced & diced my heart completely
Oh how i loved her brown curly hair, loved her green eyes.
Her luscious tits & her thick theighs.
All those things burned into my mind from the first time I met her.
I knew it would be difficult to forget her.
Truth be known, i fell in love with her.
Now here i am with this fkn broken & shattered heart.
Finding...
I fell in love.
Then the bitch broke my heart.
Ghosted me.
Played me.
She said she loved me.
Bitch manipulated me.
Cunt decimated me.
Sliced & diced my heart completely
Oh how i loved her brown curly hair, loved her green eyes.
Her luscious tits & her thick theighs.
All those things burned into my mind from the first time I met her.
I knew it would be difficult to forget her.
Truth be known, i fell in love with her.
Now here i am with this fkn broken & shattered heart.
Finding...
#sadness
#anger
#rejection
#heartbroken
#confusion
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ANGER POEM
Published
25th Sep 2022 11:11am
25th Sep 2022 11:11am
So goddamn f**king hurt
#anger
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Sep 2022 9:33am
19th Sep 2022 9:33am
Dismal???
I am so unloved.
So fkn unloved.
Tired of all the shit that's followed me all the days of my life.
49 yrs old and already had more than one wife.
Alone is what i deserved.
Alone is what i got.
Alone is what i am.
This is my destiny.
I've accepted this.
P.o.s that ain't worth piss.
May God in heaven forgive me for my wickedness.
I know in my heart i deserve nothing short of death in hell.
Help me god.
So tired i am.
Mentally fogged i have become.
Mentally numb.
Day in day out.
Sleep all fkn day even while...
So fkn unloved.
Tired of all the shit that's followed me all the days of my life.
49 yrs old and already had more than one wife.
Alone is what i deserved.
Alone is what i got.
Alone is what i am.
This is my destiny.
I've accepted this.
P.o.s that ain't worth piss.
May God in heaven forgive me for my wickedness.
I know in my heart i deserve nothing short of death in hell.
Help me god.
So tired i am.
Mentally fogged i have become.
Mentally numb.
Day in day out.
Sleep all fkn day even while...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#emptiness
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
13th Sep 2022 9:42pm
13th Sep 2022 9:42pm
MY CONFESSION TO GOD
Through all my hardships through all my hurt through all my pain.
God was always there,he saw every tear i dropped again & again.
Although i was ridin' with natas every year before 1996.
That was the year i got witnessed to, no longer praising the triple 6.
I believe in my lord,my savior even though at times i feel as though i have lost my way.
Day after day i would fall,forget to be holy and wise.
Day after day i continued to hang around those who were the devil in disguise.
The drinkin' the smokin' the lyin' the stealin' the fornicatin'
no sin is...
God was always there,he saw every tear i dropped again & again.
Although i was ridin' with natas every year before 1996.
That was the year i got witnessed to, no longer praising the triple 6.
I believe in my lord,my savior even though at times i feel as though i have lost my way.
Day after day i would fall,forget to be holy and wise.
Day after day i continued to hang around those who were the devil in disguise.
The drinkin' the smokin' the lyin' the stealin' the fornicatin'
no sin is...
#God
#Christian
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LOVE POEM
Published
9th Sep 2022 8:47am
9th Sep 2022 8:47am
The Kiss 2
Yet here i sit again.
Dwelling on my sin.
The wanting and wishing.
Another woman has seized my heart by laying her lips upon mine.
I am mentally defunct.
All i can say is W.T.F?
I should fear all women for they have so much more power over man.
It doesn't have to be sex or even a kiss.
It can be by just a simple finger touching skin.
I just can't believe it.
I don't want to believe it.
Everything falling apart at the seams.
I just can't believe she's shattering my heart to pieces.
Is there one fucking woman on this earth that...
Dwelling on my sin.
The wanting and wishing.
Another woman has seized my heart by laying her lips upon mine.
I am mentally defunct.
All i can say is W.T.F?
I should fear all women for they have so much more power over man.
It doesn't have to be sex or even a kiss.
It can be by just a simple finger touching skin.
I just can't believe it.
I don't want to believe it.
Everything falling apart at the seams.
I just can't believe she's shattering my heart to pieces.
Is there one fucking woman on this earth that...
#anxiety
#grief
#rejection
#frustration
#disappointment
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LOVE POEM
Published
31st Aug 2022 1:19pm
31st Aug 2022 1:19pm
Heartbreak Again
After 1 week i still feel the heartbreak.
I wish this pain would end soon.
My eating habits have changed drastically.
Not eating enough.
Sleeping too much.
Falling hard in love is the worst thing to ever happen to me.
If i ever get over this, I'll never want this again.
I wouldn't want you to go through this kinda pain.
Tightness in my chest.
Heart attack?
Not so lucky.
Stomach pains.
Migraines.
Hard to swallow.
I would give everything to not feel this.
God help me.
How do i find a way out of this? ...
I wish this pain would end soon.
My eating habits have changed drastically.
Not eating enough.
Sleeping too much.
Falling hard in love is the worst thing to ever happen to me.
If i ever get over this, I'll never want this again.
I wouldn't want you to go through this kinda pain.
Tightness in my chest.
Heart attack?
Not so lucky.
Stomach pains.
Migraines.
Hard to swallow.
I would give everything to not feel this.
God help me.
How do i find a way out of this? ...
#sadness
#loneliness
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Aug 2022 9:04am
26th Aug 2022 9:04am
F.M.L 2022
I've said it more than once in many different ways.
F.M.L is how it's always been and always will be.
I've come to accept the fact that another love in my life just isn't going to occur ever again.
I'm to live alone.
Just as I'm to die alone.
Shit happens.
Just it's been happening the past 48 yrs of my life.
So I'll continue to say FML until that fateful day of death occurs.
Nobody is ever gonna love me again.
I'm not an attractive man.
I don't make alot of money.
I'm just fucked.
Bring me peace.
Eternal peace. ...
F.M.L is how it's always been and always will be.
I've come to accept the fact that another love in my life just isn't going to occur ever again.
I'm to live alone.
Just as I'm to die alone.
Shit happens.
Just it's been happening the past 48 yrs of my life.
So I'll continue to say FML until that fateful day of death occurs.
Nobody is ever gonna love me again.
I'm not an attractive man.
I don't make alot of money.
I'm just fucked.
Bring me peace.
Eternal peace. ...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#confusion
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Aug 2022 9:54am
22nd Aug 2022 9:54am
What have i done?
What have i done to deserve this silent treatment?
Is it because of my sinful ways, lord?
Please my lord my god.
Why has thou forsaken me?
Everyone i know leaves me alone in this cold dark world.
I'm not mentally strong enough to deal with this.
I feel like crying.
I feel like sleeping.
I am feeling so weak now.
I am feeling so sad and depressed.
They say I LUV U.
Then they ghost you.
I don't deserve this misery.
Death is far better than the feeling of heartbreak.
...
Is it because of my sinful ways, lord?
Please my lord my god.
Why has thou forsaken me?
Everyone i know leaves me alone in this cold dark world.
I'm not mentally strong enough to deal with this.
I feel like crying.
I feel like sleeping.
I am feeling so weak now.
I am feeling so sad and depressed.
They say I LUV U.
Then they ghost you.
I don't deserve this misery.
Death is far better than the feeling of heartbreak.
...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#confusion
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