F.M.L 2022

I've said it more than once in many different ways.  
F.M.L is how it's always been and always will be.  
I've come to accept the fact that another love in my life just isn't going to occur ever again.
I'm to live alone.  
Just as I'm to die alone.  
Shit happens.  
Just it's been happening the past 48 yrs of my life.
So I'll continue to say FML until that fateful day of death occurs.  
Nobody is ever gonna love me again.  
I'm not an attractive man.  
I don't make alot of money.  
I'm just fucked.
Bring me peace.  
Eternal peace.  
No more earthly pain.  
Constant migraines.  
Nothing left for me here.  
Abusive relationships is all I get.  
All i see is shit.  
Love is just a distant memory.  
Love shall no longer show itself to me.  
M.F.
M.F.
M.F.
Pessimist attitude.  
Love is a constant M.F.
Lost my mind more than ever.  
Running through my head are thoughts of fkd past loves that'll never return.  
From my skin to within my soul I feel the fkn burn.
Love sucks when your tortured by it.
I've started the process of the elimination of fkn Love.  
Fkn head trips.
Love is a M.F. bitch.
I've done nothing wrong to deserve this M.F. shit.
Always been Mr. Nice guy.
Now I wanna fkn die.
Many,so many fkn bottles of pills to make me sleep.
I no longer wish to hurt, wish to weep.
Living amongst the world's sheep.
Heartbreak brings the constant heartache.  
Stomach twisted into knots, no appetite, vomit bile out my nose pours snot.
I awaken time aftef time hoping life was just a fkd up dream.
But it's not.  
It's a world of shit.
Mental therapy won't help me.  
Mental stress has a tight grip on me.
I wish I had a friend i could hold and cry my tears of hurt on their shoulder.  
None are within sight.
None within reach.
Crying every fkn day.
Crying every fkn night.  
A comforter i seek.
None of what I've mentioned shall i ever receive.  
Now my pessimistic attitude has me saying fk fk this M.FKN Shit.
Losing my battle with Mental anguish.  
Fk this.
Fk this madness.  
Banging my head against the door.
Numb this pain so i feel no more.
Fk that shit about men aren't supposed to cry.
I've always heard it takes a real man to cry, especially cry in front of a woman.  
Now it's time for me to drift off to sleep.  
I can only wish i drift off to my eternal sleep.  
I'm not that fkn lucky, so I'll just drift off for a lite rest.
Then if i awaken.
I'm back to this.
All over again.  
Forgive me oh lord my God.  
Forgive me.  
For being so unhappy.  
Always so unhappy.  
Unhappy.  
I've accepted that no woman will ever love me again.  
I hate feeling down and out.
Please please help meeeeee.
Stop this stop this.
Help oh god help.
I don't wanna cry anymore.  
I just don't wanna cry.
No more tears.  
Why why why?
 
FML!!!