Submissions by Undivided_Praxis
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
16th Feb 2018 4:11pm
16th Feb 2018 4:11pm
Starlight & carcrashes
I see you’re quite the man now
while I wittle my life away
4 suicide attempts in 2 months
none worked so here I stand
broken will and instilled conformity
(Don’t show them you’re weak
Your family do not care)
Stare into the eye of the devil
beg him to take you home instead
The world isn’t built for people
like me who struggle to move
struggle to think, communicate
In and out of therapy,
because no one really understands
I’m broken and it hurts
Conformity is the name of the game
be a yes-man,...
while I wittle my life away
4 suicide attempts in 2 months
none worked so here I stand
broken will and instilled conformity
(Don’t show them you’re weak
Your family do not care)
Stare into the eye of the devil
beg him to take you home instead
The world isn’t built for people
like me who struggle to move
struggle to think, communicate
In and out of therapy,
because no one really understands
I’m broken and it hurts
Conformity is the name of the game
be a yes-man,...
#emptiness
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4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Oct 2017 12:23pm
7th Oct 2017 12:23pm
Depth
Deep in the depths of nothingness
I no longer rise, I simply stifle sobs
within my mind that do not channel
themselves into tears anymore
I wake, apply for work
Deal with the dogs
deal with myself
I sleep wrapped in the
soundless warmth of medication
EUPD has forced many people away
Last night I drank upon an impulse
a three quarter glass of whiskey
one tiny drop of a soft drink
I downed it, no time to
take things slow
googled the personality disorder place
started crying, for...
I no longer rise, I simply stifle sobs
within my mind that do not channel
themselves into tears anymore
I wake, apply for work
Deal with the dogs
deal with myself
I sleep wrapped in the
soundless warmth of medication
EUPD has forced many people away
Last night I drank upon an impulse
a three quarter glass of whiskey
one tiny drop of a soft drink
I downed it, no time to
take things slow
googled the personality disorder place
started crying, for...
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5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
28th Sep 2017 8:58pm
28th Sep 2017 8:58pm
Remedy
The wind rattles my bones again
and love, this time I'm scared
I won't reach out for fear of waking you
so I'll lie stiff in my bed hoping the rattling
doesn't break the glass within
It's not even 9pm yet
and the world sleeps soundly
unaware that lovers like you and I
rest restlessly trying to calm overactive
minds
I cannot write anymore
Because your beauty isn't
a ghost I am trying to capture
forever
I will let it grow, with soil, water and
the sunshine of my bleeding soul
I am a child ...
and love, this time I'm scared
I won't reach out for fear of waking you
so I'll lie stiff in my bed hoping the rattling
doesn't break the glass within
It's not even 9pm yet
and the world sleeps soundly
unaware that lovers like you and I
rest restlessly trying to calm overactive
minds
I cannot write anymore
Because your beauty isn't
a ghost I am trying to capture
forever
I will let it grow, with soil, water and
the sunshine of my bleeding soul
I am a child ...
630 reads
8 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
14th Sep 2017 3:09pm
14th Sep 2017 3:09pm
First, last, forever?
First date
Nerves were electricity
Outside the..station
Ran in too fast, hugged you
like I've never hugged before
'My God, you really are beautiful'
He laughed, and then...
And then, he
took my hand and
we strolled through
the streets, silently
I broke the ice
(Hoping full well
I never broke his heart)
We crossed the road
went straight into the park
laughing at squirrels
laughing at the situation
We'd met online and
then for real and it was
ecstasy like I'd never known. ...
Nerves were electricity
Outside the..station
Ran in too fast, hugged you
like I've never hugged before
'My God, you really are beautiful'
He laughed, and then...
And then, he
took my hand and
we strolled through
the streets, silently
I broke the ice
(Hoping full well
I never broke his heart)
We crossed the road
went straight into the park
laughing at squirrels
laughing at the situation
We'd met online and
then for real and it was
ecstasy like I'd never known. ...
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Jul 2017 10:24pm
29th Jul 2017 10:24pm
Tsunami of false hope
I tell you
You're perfect
every single
day and
there are worms
biting holes in my mind
so I won't remember
who you are, soon.
My heart will
be a glacier
all over again
I want to
tell you you're beautiful
but I know your heart knows this
so I tell you, you are a fruit on the
top of a tree, too perfect for people
to reach.. hoping you
understand.
I tell you
the first person I run to
about
EUPD and
you tell me about
menial things that
mean the world. ...
You're perfect
every single
day and
there are worms
biting holes in my mind
so I won't remember
who you are, soon.
My heart will
be a glacier
all over again
I want to
tell you you're beautiful
but I know your heart knows this
so I tell you, you are a fruit on the
top of a tree, too perfect for people
to reach.. hoping you
understand.
I tell you
the first person I run to
about
EUPD and
you tell me about
menial things that
mean the world. ...
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Jul 2017 9:57pm
29th Jul 2017 9:57pm
What am I?
Physically imperfect
perfecting the mind
though that's broken too.
Therapy
I tell her about us
how young I was
what I did for you
how you treated me
Abuse...
one word
'Yeah.. that's abuse.'
I tell her more about me
so she can suss out what
not who she's dealing with.
I am words I say on a piece of paper
my name means nothing to her
I'm just to be passed from pillar
to post...
She tells me I have
r e p e a t e d
things
but I only repeated it
because...
perfecting the mind
though that's broken too.
Therapy
I tell her about us
how young I was
what I did for you
how you treated me
Abuse...
one word
'Yeah.. that's abuse.'
I tell her more about me
so she can suss out what
not who she's dealing with.
I am words I say on a piece of paper
my name means nothing to her
I'm just to be passed from pillar
to post...
She tells me I have
r e p e a t e d
things
but I only repeated it
because...
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SELF POEM
Published
3rd Jul 2017 2:42pm
3rd Jul 2017 2:42pm
Decay and Decline
failure sits deep in
my veins. It is the
drug deep deep
deep in my blood that
I cannot escape.
Here are my failures
- My first real LDR
- Being a daughter, a sister, a cousin,
a friend.
- My degree
-Inability to beat depression
I cannot separate my
jaw to unravel just how
badly I did, so my
tongue hides between
the roof of my mouth and
its hollow floor.
I am hiding
I have poison
but I cannot take it
I fear i'll fail my departure
yet again.
But...
my veins. It is the
drug deep deep
deep in my blood that
I cannot escape.
Here are my failures
- My first real LDR
- Being a daughter, a sister, a cousin,
a friend.
- My degree
-Inability to beat depression
I cannot separate my
jaw to unravel just how
badly I did, so my
tongue hides between
the roof of my mouth and
its hollow floor.
I am hiding
I have poison
but I cannot take it
I fear i'll fail my departure
yet again.
But...
653 reads
5 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
30th Jun 2017 7:47pm
30th Jun 2017 7:47pm
Despair,loss, anger and regression
742 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2017 7:39pm
23rd Jun 2017 7:39pm
And it wasn't
It wasn't because
You weren't enough
it was because my
mind is constantly playing
catch up with itself and
Isn't strong enough to
play push and pull with
your moods
Back and forth
See-saw
I love you
Fuck off
I hate you
Please stay
When all I did
was try to be
as there as I could
Hold you while you cried
over the phone at midnight
not caring about my
mood.
Final straw
'You disrespected me'
When I barely said 'hello'
By text that day
Phantom...
You weren't enough
it was because my
mind is constantly playing
catch up with itself and
Isn't strong enough to
play push and pull with
your moods
Back and forth
See-saw
I love you
Fuck off
I hate you
Please stay
When all I did
was try to be
as there as I could
Hold you while you cried
over the phone at midnight
not caring about my
mood.
Final straw
'You disrespected me'
When I barely said 'hello'
By text that day
Phantom...
664 reads
3 Comments
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