Bones

My bones are licked by many a flame
I lie still as the devil laughs his precious laugh
I become nothing, nowhere.

& then... his face
my cherub no longer mine
who kept me sane
when there was none
of it left.

But he only exists in the
online dimension of never-again-land.

You were my first broken
promise.
I was supposed to see you
we were supposed to be spiritual
galaxies entwined, making starlit children
called Luna and Lance
(Like our unicorns were called)

15.37 7.9.2017
I think about pills again
should i let everything
fade to oblivion
you'd say yes at this
stage and my mind would
99% agree
1% is hanging on

for my first kiss
my first actual
fuck
(cybering isn't the same)
my first
   slutty, sloppy
blowie

I don't want to
die without
tasting the
pure essence of
man.

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