Submissions by Jinx (Victoria Drapeau)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm a small crazy girl with a big heart. So as you can see my writing probably wont be as sweet.
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Apr 2017 4:41am
13th Apr 2017 4:41am
Not you but him
Im going a little bit insane
Even with so little distance in the way
From midnight escapades
To going back to your place
Waking up next to you was so peaceful
Even in such a foreign place
You put butterflies in my stomach
And a smile in my heart
You made me feel so safe
As you pulled me close in your sleep
Even when I started to freeze
I curled up close to get some heat
You wrapped me up and held me close
As you fell back to sleep
When the alarms started to ring
You didn't stir from your...
Even with so little distance in the way
From midnight escapades
To going back to your place
Waking up next to you was so peaceful
Even in such a foreign place
You put butterflies in my stomach
And a smile in my heart
You made me feel so safe
As you pulled me close in your sleep
Even when I started to freeze
I curled up close to get some heat
You wrapped me up and held me close
As you fell back to sleep
When the alarms started to ring
You didn't stir from your...
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SELF POEM
Published
31st Mar 2017 7:01am
31st Mar 2017 7:01am
Total f**k Up
You are the best thing that's ever happened to me...
You smile at me like you won 1st place..
You hug me like there is no place you rather be..
But I know soon you'll be sick of me..
I'm just a total fuck up..
A waste of space..
Always someone who can be replaced..
I get jealous..
I get upset..
Insecure..
Maybe even a little emotional..
I cry myself to sleep when I'm without you..
I hug your sweater and think of the good times I've had with you..
I shake and plead with myself..
As I fight my demons deep in my mind.. ...
You smile at me like you won 1st place..
You hug me like there is no place you rather be..
But I know soon you'll be sick of me..
I'm just a total fuck up..
A waste of space..
Always someone who can be replaced..
I get jealous..
I get upset..
Insecure..
Maybe even a little emotional..
I cry myself to sleep when I'm without you..
I hug your sweater and think of the good times I've had with you..
I shake and plead with myself..
As I fight my demons deep in my mind.. ...
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Jun 2016 8:00am
5th Jun 2016 8:00am
Only wanted to be
I knew I wouldn't always be the one you wanted to see
I just wanted to be the one you never forgot when you tried to sleep
Even as the days grew longer
And the nights shorter
Even as the distance seemed to stretch
All we had to do was sort out this mess
But instead we started to argue
Saying things we couldn't take back
Even as I started to cry
Looking for an end
I still kept looking for you
The only hope for my stupid blues
Even though you keep calling me cheesy
I just wish you'd only knew
How much I only wanted to be the one you'd...
I just wanted to be the one you never forgot when you tried to sleep
Even as the days grew longer
And the nights shorter
Even as the distance seemed to stretch
All we had to do was sort out this mess
But instead we started to argue
Saying things we couldn't take back
Even as I started to cry
Looking for an end
I still kept looking for you
The only hope for my stupid blues
Even though you keep calling me cheesy
I just wish you'd only knew
How much I only wanted to be the one you'd...
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SELF POEM
Published
6th May 2016 6:38am
6th May 2016 6:38am
Final Goodbye
I never wanted things to end
I was always fighting for you.. for me
For all the adventures we planned to create..
but then you left..
everyday got harder and harder to get through
kept picking up a knife to carve away the pain
set into a blissful numbness
even as your words cut into me
tearing me down...
all i ever did was love you..
no matter what you said...
i still loved you
even as the days got worse
even as the truth of the horrors id see
was being bottled up deep inside me...
I kept trying for you.. for me..
for all the...
I was always fighting for you.. for me
For all the adventures we planned to create..
but then you left..
everyday got harder and harder to get through
kept picking up a knife to carve away the pain
set into a blissful numbness
even as your words cut into me
tearing me down...
all i ever did was love you..
no matter what you said...
i still loved you
even as the days got worse
even as the truth of the horrors id see
was being bottled up deep inside me...
I kept trying for you.. for me..
for all the...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
18th Apr 2016 7:48am
18th Apr 2016 7:48am
One day... one day you'll remember me
One day you'll look back
You'll see how hard I tried
Even after every reason to give up
I still loved
Went against the odds for you
One day you'll see what your missing
Maybe even miss me
One day you'll see
no one could love you like me
No one could take it like me
Every word you said
Every lie you spoke
Every promise you made
Every step out the door you took
With every break in my heart and soul
Yet I still stayed
One day you'll see the person I was
The person I was meant to be
To bad at this rate
I'll never see...
You'll see how hard I tried
Even after every reason to give up
I still loved
Went against the odds for you
One day you'll see what your missing
Maybe even miss me
One day you'll see
no one could love you like me
No one could take it like me
Every word you said
Every lie you spoke
Every promise you made
Every step out the door you took
With every break in my heart and soul
Yet I still stayed
One day you'll see the person I was
The person I was meant to be
To bad at this rate
I'll never see...
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Apr 2016 11:06pm
17th Apr 2016 11:06pm
My Addiction
You became my Addiction
My fix to pull me away from reality
At first it was full of laughter and fun
Then slowly it grew dark and I wanted to run
You started to say things to hurt me
Till your actions drove me to my blades
The very thing you asked me to leave
Worse and worse it got
Till I started to cry myself to sleep
With a pocket knife lying beside me
As I stay locked away
Hiding from society
I cant leave
This cell we've created
You became my addiction
The one I couldn't shake
I tried to leave but it hurt more then staying...
My fix to pull me away from reality
At first it was full of laughter and fun
Then slowly it grew dark and I wanted to run
You started to say things to hurt me
Till your actions drove me to my blades
The very thing you asked me to leave
Worse and worse it got
Till I started to cry myself to sleep
With a pocket knife lying beside me
As I stay locked away
Hiding from society
I cant leave
This cell we've created
You became my addiction
The one I couldn't shake
I tried to leave but it hurt more then staying...
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LOVE POEM
Published
17th Apr 2016 10:49pm
17th Apr 2016 10:49pm
Dying with everyday
Always quick to walk away
You do to me you said to never do to you
You say you hate her
Yet you act just like her
Striking at the one who loves you
Been down for you since day one
The one who's giving it all for you
You couldn't care less
It's not you.
Can't you see..
I'm killing myself loving you
The moment you finally walk away
I'll have died
And you'll be set free
I will never be enough for you
You always throw someone in my face
These beautiful people
I couldn't even compare to
Even as I cry
You just laugh and...
You do to me you said to never do to you
You say you hate her
Yet you act just like her
Striking at the one who loves you
Been down for you since day one
The one who's giving it all for you
You couldn't care less
It's not you.
Can't you see..
I'm killing myself loving you
The moment you finally walk away
I'll have died
And you'll be set free
I will never be enough for you
You always throw someone in my face
These beautiful people
I couldn't even compare to
Even as I cry
You just laugh and...
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LOVE POEM
Published
15th Apr 2016 7:44pm
15th Apr 2016 7:44pm
.......
I'm sorry I wasnt perfect, sometimes insecure. I'm sorry I wasn't worth it to see the slight troubles theough. If you told me I would have caved and changed. I changed parts on me and started to adapt. I never ask you to change for me only to try for me. Anytime I tried to tell you how I felt you'd guilt trip me and start to talk bad.
But through it all I still forgave and loved you anyways. You say you have your missions and I know that you do. From day one I told you they came first. I'd always know that. I know they need you. Even when you rant and raved saying you gave up. I didn't...
But through it all I still forgave and loved you anyways. You say you have your missions and I know that you do. From day one I told you they came first. I'd always know that. I know they need you. Even when you rant and raved saying you gave up. I didn't...
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LOVE POEM
Published
15th Apr 2016 6:56pm
15th Apr 2016 6:56pm
Trying..
I'm trying to hold on...
I'm trying not to give up..
Your everything I want
But yet I'll never be what you want
I was nothing more than entertainment
If only just for a few months
To shake me off
You started to self sabotage
But yet I still stayed...
I never gave up..
Even when I knew your heart was leaving
I still tried
Sometimes I laid there staring wide awake
Sometimes I'd fall asleep
Dreaming of you and the happiness you make
But then it would all change...
I'd dream of how you'd walk away
Those words ringing through...
I'm trying not to give up..
Your everything I want
But yet I'll never be what you want
I was nothing more than entertainment
If only just for a few months
To shake me off
You started to self sabotage
But yet I still stayed...
I never gave up..
Even when I knew your heart was leaving
I still tried
Sometimes I laid there staring wide awake
Sometimes I'd fall asleep
Dreaming of you and the happiness you make
But then it would all change...
I'd dream of how you'd walk away
Those words ringing through...
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Apr 2016 6:21am
15th Apr 2016 6:21am
Never Ending
I'm at the point where breaking is becoming normal, hurting is an everyday thing and feeling unloved is just what I'll always see. No matter what it will always be the same, your words of love and caring are empty when your actions do nothing but destroy. But yet there is always someone who is to stubborn to walk away because they have given to much because that's all they know. You hurt them because you've been hurt without realizing you're just creating a cycle. Cause at one point you'll get bored and throw them away and when someone tries to love them they will hurt them just because they...
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LOVE POEM
Published
13th Apr 2016 8:43am
13th Apr 2016 8:43am
I'm scared
You say you love me
Yet you don't think twice about me
You make me cry every night
Like if I'm not worth your time
I never asked for everything
I only asked for you
Even when you left me
I still treated you right
When you said you loved me...
My heart believed it
But my mind is calling it lies
Cause you don't even show it
You make promises left and right
But haven't kept a single word
Even left when you said you wouldn't
What is my worth?
You can sit there and hurt me
But I'm not allowed to hurt myself...
Yet you don't think twice about me
You make me cry every night
Like if I'm not worth your time
I never asked for everything
I only asked for you
Even when you left me
I still treated you right
When you said you loved me...
My heart believed it
But my mind is calling it lies
Cause you don't even show it
You make promises left and right
But haven't kept a single word
Even left when you said you wouldn't
What is my worth?
You can sit there and hurt me
But I'm not allowed to hurt myself...
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Apr 2016 4:16pm
10th Apr 2016 4:16pm
worthless
You see me here trying
You see me here giving it my all
But yet you only see what I can't do yet
Like no matter what I'm not enough
I'm sorry I'm not there
I'm sorry I fell in love with you
I'm sorry I will never be enough
No matter what I do you push me away
You let me fall for you
Then one day you snapped
You knew I was to stubborn to give up
You knew I'd keep my word
Even if you never did
You knew I'd love you no matter how much you hurt me
You didnt seem to see
How you'd break me
Till I'm just sitting here...
You see me here giving it my all
But yet you only see what I can't do yet
Like no matter what I'm not enough
I'm sorry I'm not there
I'm sorry I fell in love with you
I'm sorry I will never be enough
No matter what I do you push me away
You let me fall for you
Then one day you snapped
You knew I was to stubborn to give up
You knew I'd keep my word
Even if you never did
You knew I'd love you no matter how much you hurt me
You didnt seem to see
How you'd break me
Till I'm just sitting here...
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DU Poetry : Submissions by Jinx (Victoria Drapeau)
