Procrastination

Procrastination
often, to the brink
slipping, I think &
drowning in an
abyss of PANIC!
Any attempt to
mindfully dismiss
all angst or bliss,
to not think
to not rethink
to not over think
knowing full well
even the smallest
ort or iota will retie
the knot of anxiousness.
However,
at some moment
before the future
putting off tasks
is often easier
than yesterday’s
agenda but still I
persist with this joyless
entanglement.
I wish I knew why. . .

I’ll figure it out
tomorrow.

 
 
I cut the bathroom up  
with a nine inch  
Angle Grinder  
cut the parts of it  
into small pieces  
-A huge pile of rubble  
 
I had a reason  
it was my own reason  
the pipe in the wall  
was leaking  
I cut a hole in the wall  
repaired the old pipe  
added the parts of the wall  
to the huge pile of rubble  
 
The wife asked why?  
Why did you cut the bathroom up  
into small pieces?  
Why is there a huge pile of rubble?  
 
I cut the bathroom up  
for my own reasons  
and I intend to hire  
a truck and dump the rubble
I replied
 
She asked  
when?
I replied soon!  
 
She said she liked the idea of  
a new bathroom but  
then she reminded me  
 
I cut up the bathroom  
with a nine inch Angle Grinder  
three years ago  
and today is Sunday  
 
 

Tick  
Tick    
Tick    
Time waits for no man    
    
Seconds pass    
Minutes fade    
Hours turn to days    
Time waits for no man    
     
Excuses plenty     
Tasks delayed      
Deadlines avoided     
Time waits for no man    
     
Tomorrow's looming     
Offering opportunities  
Tomorrow never arrives  
Time waits for no man    
     
Transformed into an ostrich     
Head planted in sand    
Ignoring commitments    
Time waits for no man    
     
Stress builds    
A race against time  
The clocks ticking    
Time waits for no man    
 
Self inflicted anxiety  
Lingering regret  
Time waited for no man  
Procrastination

Tick  
Tick    
Tick    
Time waits for no man    
    
Seconds pass    
Minutes fade    
Hours turn to days    
Time waits for no man    
     
Excuses plenty     
Tasks delayed      
Deadlines avoided     
Time waits for no man    
     
Tomorrow's looming     
Offering opportunities  
Tomorrow never arrives  
Time waits for no man    
     
Transformed into an ostrich     
Head planted in sand    
Ignoring commitments    
Time waits for no man    
     
Stress builds    
A race against time  
The clocks ticking    
Time waits for no man    
 
Self inflicted anxiety  
Lingering regret  
Time waited for no man  
Procrastination

I lagged and dragged on a lot of decisions
And sometimes I missed the boat
I lingered for a little too long on some things in life
Then I missed the bus
And it was the longest walk

I procrastinated on the matters that would’ve been good for me
Even as the years seemed to fly by
Then it was like sprinting just to catch up
Only to be out breath and still feel out of time

But Carole assures we should always be glad
For what we had, even if it’s gone
Now as a sit here and listen to those old songs
I feel like a fool for having missed on some opportunities
But happy I took a chance on other ones

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I need a little more time to ponder, this everlasting life    
I have have too much going on right now, stress, anxiety and strife  
I want to get more opinions, from those who are saved or not    
I have to list my reasons, incase someone puts me on the spot    
    
I will get all my ideas together, to clear up uncertainty    
I will take my time and figure out this plan of 'Eternity'    
I have taken this long, so one more day, should not be a worry    
I want to make sure and clear it all up, so this decision will not be blurry    
   
I can wait until tomorrow, for surely I'm ok 'til then    
I might even go a little longer, now I'm not sure when    
I have done a lot of thinking, this can be for another time    
I will not rush into this, after all I'm still in my prime    
   
(converse)    
   
If you notice there are 12 ( I's) and no decision was there made    
'the devil was in the details', you should know, you've been betrayed    
now in the end we are not promised, another minute much less a day    
It's best to ask for answers( and forgiveness) , from the One who hears you pray    
   
Do not let yourselves be deceived, that all the answers you'll glean    
"faith is confidence in what we hope for, and assurance of things unseen".(Hebrews 11:1)    
So do not think there is a lot of time, for your decision will be slowed    
for that will "lead to NEVER", and the enemy, would have you take that road