SUFFERING FROM ANXIETY and  SUGGESTING A WAY OUT

Hi,

This is a mutual help competition.
It has two means of participating.

1).
If you have an anxiety,
can you describe it?
Who/What is causing it?
How long?
What is it like for you?
How are you coping?
By posting, you agree to permit  members
to offer suggestions..

2). If you are a member, and
you perhaps have been thru/done that
We welcome you to  offer suggestions, to somebody's post.


Finally, add a touch of poetry to any response

We personally, may not be able to say much,
I ask that other members, feel open to respond.

Many Joys and Regards
Curtis

Why are you anxious?
 Well, I got this letter in the mail,
that my house has chipping paint, and missing siding, etc, etc,
and since it was all summer and I did not get started,
I got this big fine.  

Then Some guy off the street, was walking by, seing me working,
and he offered to help.  I paid him ahead of time, thinking he was
a good guy, but then he said he had to go for breakfast, and dissappeared.

Why does that make you anxious?
I am not sure.  it may be that looming deadline coming up,
when the inspector returns.

Tis only another fine if you didn't do anything.
is money  or even that house such a big deal?

Yes, I am a selfish person, I should give away the house
and be done with it. I am suffering from my own greed of wanting to keep the house.

Did that guy that help you make you troubled?

Kind of, I met him the day before,
we agreed he would come the next day at nine,
and he said he wanted some money, because he had some building supplies
he wanted to sell.

So he came an hour early, climbed up the ladder to the second floor,
got in thru a window, and took building supplies of mine, and had them
outside, when I came later.  It was only later I realized I was buying my own stuff.


What can make you stop being anxious?

I dunno. maybe already I am feeling better.

https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/284377-heres-the-answer-to-that/

If you have an anxiety,
can you describe it?

It’s basically a little pixie holding a gun to my head telling me bad things will happen if I don’t do X,Y,Z in a certain order.

Who/What is causing it?

I have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder which is an anxiety disorder that manifests itself in obsessive behaviour to control a perceived threat. My obsession is personal safety, so I’m obsessed with switches / locks / doors / windows / ovens. This manifests in personal rituals, routines I have to do before I leave the house and throughout the day. And photographs of switches. Up to 5000 a week which I delete every other day. Been taking photographs of switches every day for about 6 years straight now.

How long?

Diagnosed 8 years ago but neurotic since childhood

What is it like for you?

It is draining every single day. Absoloutly exhausting.

How are you coping?

These days, a lot better. Some days great, some days terribly.

https://youtu.be/TD-xPiwtyHA

Thank you, Miss Sub,
This is some very powerful words.
I really did not know others have these distractions from Utopia


Dave, Thanks for your words
Others will be inspired  to overcome shortcomings
by you

Boybrains, Thanks for the beautiful words
letting each of us know that we have
strength and beauty in us.

LunaGreyhawk,

I must say I have felt these things,
the comfort found in the dark dank chilly hole
and the fake smiles, perfected, to ward off people
asking "Hi, How are you"

In some  societies, instead of greeting you that way, they
say,  "give me all your pain, and take from me all the contentment you need"
(orsomethinglikethat)

If you have an anxiety,
can you describe it?

I was diagnosed with a Post-traumatic Stress Disorder, and I get anxious about a lot of things and most of the times I blame myself for things I have totally no control over. I wish to undo a lot of wrongs of the past, I have voices screaming in my head to tell me I won't amount to anything, I am useless and "I AM A WASTE" and these are actually words that are being reechoed into my sub-conscience and were once spoken by someone really close to me, whom I drew a lot of inspiration from. Every time I fail at something, even  something as little as solving a soduku puzzle, these words start being echoed back into my mind.

Who/What is causing it?

My ex-girlfriend once came to me and told me she was pregnant and later when she gave birth, I learned it wasn't my son. She then decided to do "what's best for us" and broke up with me. I got angry and start drinking heavily, got introduced to drugs and as way of financing my new addiction, got introduced to crime. I joined a notorious gang of glorified criminals and under their umbrella witness a lot of brutal crimes. I still see a lot of those flashbacks in my mind and sometimes when it's intense I fall into trances of those scenes.

How long?
This is my second year diagnosed. I joined the gang  about 4 years ago. And my ex's child is 6 year's old this year.

What is it like for you?

Basically it's shit! Being afraid to start anything because you are afraid you will fail and even worst if you do actually start something and fail. The voice echoes even louder, to tell you that you are just plain useless; why did you even attempt knowing you will fail. My flashbacks aren't getting any better too and I keep seeing faces beyond graves trying to pull me into darkness with them.

How are you coping?
For one I try to do things that carry less risks, to avoid the pain of going through another disappointment. I have since withdrawn myself from gang activities (although I know I can never be truly free from that). I am on the road towards rehabilitation from my drug use, although I keep having so many relapse but I do believe I will get there one day. I am also undergoing psychotherapy.