Crying Out

As I sit here
in my house
I wonder why
I'm at a loss
my family is here
but I'm so alone

nobody cares
how I feel
so I just pour it out
for you to hear
I hope this dosen't
bother you
just had to say
I hope it heals

The sky is clear
my future's bright
but today I think
I am losing my fight
to hold on to my sanity
people come and people go
but does anybody
really want to know

What is going on
in my heart, in my soul
here's the dice take a roll
hands held out to be fed
not one concern
about my head
or the thoughts
bouncing around
just wish I had
someone around

To hold and hug
comfort and console
that is what I crave for
been so long
out of touch
I've lost the sense
of a lovers touch
so alone am I today
words alone just can't say

The music that I play
keeps my demons away
the words I write
makes me feel alright
but deep down inside
I think it's how I hide

from the tragedy
of my past
I'm coming apart
very fast
losing my grip
on my cool
I can't help
but sink in this pool

This pool is oh so deep
treading water
but still can't reach
the shallow end
is far away
can I last another day