I'm So Confused

I am so confused,
Why do i do this to myself?
I just can't help it.
I don't want anybody else.
You're the one i love being with,
but sometimes you tear me apart.
My feeling are in-explainable.
I can't even listen to my heart,
Because everything else around me
Gets into my head.
They try to tell me what to do,
They're just ripping me to shreds.
This is hurting us both,
So sorry, I am.
We can get through this together,
Please, just take my hand.