If I could, you'd be here

If  I could
Id leap back in time
transport to the minutes that
you were mine.
If I could I give back the seconds
when I felt your lips pressed against mine
If I could
I would
but I can't.


I can only go back and steal looks
at the pictures, poems
& remember
The feelings so hot
ended as cold as december
and I sigh deep with regret
sometimes I just want to forget
but when memories are imprinted on your soul
they stay with you til you get old
and serve as lessons and reminders you see
that once upon a time you cared deeply for me
and me as impatient as i am
couldn't see what was right in front of me
and that was him.