change me???

we had a conversation today
told me we were rushing into this
said that i was being distant and unfair
that we were not going to work
that i wasnt the same person as before
that i needed to change to be with you
out of everyone i believed....foolishly hoped
you would be different then everyone else
you said that you now know what it feels like to wait
no...what u feel right now is wanting something
that you cant have or you dont deserve i dont know
i waited for too long in the past for you
changed soo much of myself for you
and now you complain about how im being unfair and closed-minded
i cant help but laugh a fruitless laugh at you
wondering to myself were did we go down hill
hurting so much inside at the fact that you could still hurt
after all these years like opening an old wound
just to feel alive and full but then shutting myself again
pushing you away from me and not letting you in again
sowing the wound thats costantly bleeding everywhere
but i have to close this door of my life
stop re-reading this chapter in my life and wishing
that i could change something in this part of time
but i gave my heart to you and opened myself up
you know the darkest secrets of my past
the most rotted skeletons in my closet
you even know about the things that go inside my head
yet you keep saying that i dont open up
that i dont tell you anything about myself
that what i do is agaisnt what you believe
but love isnt a one way road no
its two roads that meet with each other and joined each other
not for the beliefs thoughts ideas of the person
but because we saw something inecah other that day and
honestly...im sick of all this shit that you've put me through
what the fuck do you think this is bitch a carnival
whenever you want to have fun come here and have a fucken swell
time with everyone here while you basically fuck with
someone's mind u think that there isnt consequences
that eventually someone gets tired of all this shit and i just want to say fuck you we're done get the fuck away from me
so much fucken shit that i honestly cant comprehend
why the fuck i'm still wasting my time to try to
change myself for a selfless whore who doesn't
give a rat's ass about how i feel or my past and reasons
just stay away before i say something that will shatter your world
im done changing for you when you wont change for me