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Drowning in Panic
Festering silently
waiting to crush
all my ego
and self-hood,
sacrifice all
of my pride
and my vanity,
thrash my endurance
and cloud my humanity,
here it comes dancing,
the Jester of Death.
Not that you'd see
what it is
that is taking
my soul to basement
for hammers and nails.
This is the portion
of being adjusted
that calls like a stake
in the heart of a whale.
All of my days
become roots
in a sentence
with tendrils
of leather
and anchor set sail.
These are the thoughts
that follow me closely
looking for moments
to toss me the rail.
runningturtle87
waiting to crush
all my ego
and self-hood,
sacrifice all
of my pride
and my vanity,
thrash my endurance
and cloud my humanity,
here it comes dancing,
the Jester of Death.
Not that you'd see
what it is
that is taking
my soul to basement
for hammers and nails.
This is the portion
of being adjusted
that calls like a stake
in the heart of a whale.
All of my days
become roots
in a sentence
with tendrils
of leather
and anchor set sail.
These are the thoughts
that follow me closely
looking for moments
to toss me the rail.
runningturtle87
Published 3rd Sep 2012
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Anonymous
4th Sep 2012 00:03am
I once had a week of panic attacks.
I wanted to commit suicide.
People think "oh, it is ONLY a panic attack"
No....it feels like the world is out of control, your mind is out of control, nothing you say or do or even take (some panic attacks do NOT respond to even XANAX)...and with me nausea that is so bad.....I could not eat.....
Everybody's is different and each panic attack can be different.......Give me the choice of a quick death or a panic attack....please put me down...even an animal does not have to suffer this way....
and I really liked the poem
A++++++++++++++++++++++++
I wanted to commit suicide.
People think "oh, it is ONLY a panic attack"
No....it feels like the world is out of control, your mind is out of control, nothing you say or do or even take (some panic attacks do NOT respond to even XANAX)...and with me nausea that is so bad.....I could not eat.....
Everybody's is different and each panic attack can be different.......Give me the choice of a quick death or a panic attack....please put me down...even an animal does not have to suffer this way....
and I really liked the poem
A++++++++++++++++++++++++
4th Sep 2012 1:11am
Our sibling connection on this point is uncanny....I had 5 in one week one time.....they plagued me solid for 25 years and now I have only an occasional trip to hell. Thanks for your support, Kitty.
4th Sep 2012 00:17am
Why? Why are you drowning in panic? Take a deep breath clear your mind, this is just a moment in time, everything is going to be alright.
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You might have a better chance raising your gun during an enemy fire fight then to stall a panic attack mid-stream. Off setting them to begin with is the best defense. But once they get rolling and you are in an adrenaline meltdown, you have little more to do than to ride it out. A really good friend would need to understand your situation in order to not damage the relationship irreparably. I would not wish a panic attack on my worst enemy. Seriously, Red.
Anonymous
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4th Sep 2012 2:45pm
DP, how true this is. It is amazing how many people will another person's panic attack personally. Thank you.
4th Sep 2012 11:57pm
5th Sep 2012 00:24am
As an inversion, yes...but in this case; Stevie is definitely a face here...good reading! Thanks, Harlequin.
5th Sep 2012 00:39am
Therein a wavelength shared. A greater commonality then be admitted to or known. Brave work
5th Sep 2012 00:50am
5th Sep 2012 8:21am
5th Sep 2012 11:02am
Well, I don't read much fiction, so James Lee Burke has not been on my radar, but since you've mentioned it, I'll check it out.
This, however, is a staple in my thoughts:
http://www.jstor.org/discover/10.2307/4332286?uid=3739920&uid=2129&uid=2&uid=70&uid=4&uid=3739256&sid=21101023863373
Kenneth Burke....
My mother used "copacetic" as a counter-response to the Southern, "Nice," which appalled her, although I find it charming when Onslow says it, as in:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXPXbAG5u2E
Thanks, Harlequin.
This, however, is a staple in my thoughts:
http://www.jstor.org/discover/10.2307/4332286?uid=3739920&uid=2129&uid=2&uid=70&uid=4&uid=3739256&sid=21101023863373
Kenneth Burke....
My mother used "copacetic" as a counter-response to the Southern, "Nice," which appalled her, although I find it charming when Onslow says it, as in:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXPXbAG5u2E
Thanks, Harlequin.
5th Sep 2012 12:19pm
That's an interesting link now bookmarked, thank you. Robicheaux was the only other time I ever saw copacetic used, it's a fine word
