Torn Between Two

my heart is torn
I always crash after I've flown
some would call me foolish to say I love two  
but they aren't me and neither are you  
they're as different as the day is to night  
one is drawn to wrong, the other to right  
one made me weep, the other has made me cry  
both I would be honored to call my guy  
one with steady never changing eyes  
they other with ever changing eyes that can easily hide a lie  
one I have kissed  
one I have only missed  
one makes me burn alive  
the other soothes like hot tea
and warms like a warm blanket  
one is steady like a stone  
the other was born with a body that was built to roam  
both can make me smile and laugh  
one I have loved for years of my life  
the other is willing to one day make me his wife  
one is skilled with a knife  
the other with his words  
nah, I don't know which i prefer  
all I know is I love them both  
in different ways and for different reasons  
my love for them is as constant as the seasons  
one is close  
the other is far  
one who hides his feelings  
and the other wheres his on his sleeve  
only one I know for sure will never leave
but am I willing to give up the other the one I've waited for to love me in return for so long  
would be giving up on him now be considered wrong?  
should I wait some more and tell the other one so long?  
am I a whore for being in love with two?  
but I don't know what I am supposed to do  
when my heart is torn between two.