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Just Stop

�What�s that on your arm?�
Scars
�Why did you do it?�
None of your fucking business
Why do you fucking care?
You are only asking just so can have another thing to gossip about
They see me look at my scars
�You look proud at what you did to yourself.�
I am.
It is a pride that you will never understand
They were my little secrets
But then those secrets got leaked
Now everybody wants to know
I have told the story one thousand fucking times
It was something that was supposed to be mine and only mine
There is no more use in hiding them
I seems as if everybody knows now and I don�t even know how they found out
Why don�t I just scream it to the entire fucking world?!
�Teenage girl cuts herself and tried to commit suicide! She is miserable and doesn�t give a shit about anything anymore! So everybody feel free to go and bother her! Make her life a living hell!�
Why do people even want to know?
They will never look me in the face ever again after I have told them
They will take pity on me and try to become my best friend
No.
Fuck all of you!
I don�t need you and your pity
You�ll just make everything even more shitty
I got friends of my own
Now please, can I just go home?
But they won�t let me go
More and more questions
I try to ignore it
I try to go off in my own little world where there are no questions and no people.
Just music, roses and rain
But then all of a sudden I feel a sharp pain
I look down at my scars and all I see is blood flowing from all of the cuts
They have become deeper and now all I see is red
My world has burnt down
The people are back
Question after question
I explode and tell everybody everything
I look at them and begin to cry
They are all dumbfounded
They look at me and wonder why I am crying
Just leave me alone
I don�t want there to be any more questions
I don�t want there to be any more people
I don�t want anything anymore
Only two things
I just want to stop the pain and I want my own little world back
Just music, roses and rain