A Sad Lack of Innocence

I'm an infant in a muck
of experience and toilet water.

I've seen shit I shouldn't have seen
shouldn't have done
shouldn't have heard

and now all I can say

is "fuck it" because
I'm slightly jaded,
yet still the pages of a book
come loose from their spine
hanging on by a few threads
sure
weak ones.

Maybe I know too much
and maybe I shouldn't have to deal
with this spew of psychotic integrity
but I do.

So drain me down.

    I want my fucking innocence back.