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Let's Go to the Beach

I've been staring at the waves for hours, contemplating if this is what I want
They softly sway with the ocean's rhythm inviting me in, almost like a subtle taunt.
The beach used to help me feel relaxed, and wash away all my fears
But now it holds a dark gloom, almost as if it knows why I am here.
I used to enjoy burying myself in the sand, enjoying its comforting heat
But tonight all I feel are the gentle waves as they swirl around my bare feet.
Slowly I wade in until I'm neck deep, the icy water making my body feel numb
I wait for a few more minutes, even though I already know that no one will come.
No one will come rescue me; by the time anyone finds my note I will be dead
Everyone is still at home asleep, and it'll be awhile before they get out of bed.
Time drags by, and soon enough I've swam out further than I ever have before
I keep swimming for what seems like hours, until I feel I can't swim any more.
With the last bit of my strength, I dive under the surface and swim into the dark abyss
Telling myself over and over that this is what's best; it's not like I'll really be missed.
Whoever said that drowning was a peaceful way to die must have lied
Because as I come closer to running out of air, I can feel the panic building up inside.
My lungs burn as if on fire, my chest feels heavy, and my body begins to shake
But still I swim deeper, for I crave peace, and they say this is what it takes.
No longer shall I be imprisoned by these thoughts and nightmares that haunt me
I will rid myself once and for all of these sick demons that live in me; I will finally be set free.
I exhale the last of my air, and watch as the bubbles drift away
Wondering how certain people will react when they realize how and when I died today.
My body finally goes still, hands outstretched towards the surface, mouth frozen in a silent scream
While people wake up back home, I close my eyes for the last time, and slip into a never ending dream.