The Pool

One of the best days throughout these weeks I've been sick was the days I spent at the pool. My family isn't super rich or anything, but we're a part of this country club since we've been members for years. And the best part is going inside the hot tub, feeling the steamy water touch my skin. Feeling something like that caress my skin, makes the loneliness and heartbreak go away for a moment.

I switch between that and the waterfall in the pool. Thankfully, there's a ledge that makes it easier to get to. Feeling the water pour down my skin, rejuvenating my entire body. I feel at whole, at peace that I can come here and find that comfort. Find that sanctuary of hope.

Unlike most Americans, I can slow down and really feel things no one else will ever feel.

And I get to be alone doing this, without the voices confining me. I can to be free like Mew, experiencing everything in its fullest and joy.

And for that, I never have to wonder again if I'm worth it. Because I know I am

even if this world never sees it that way.