Eyes open

Laying there I'm staring
Breathless with eyes open
Her tender touch caring
Voices saying I'm broken
 
Searching for salvation
Devouring my temptations
Into a lustful situation  
Of marital assassination  
 
I escaped the reality of life
The hell I put my family through
Ultimate betrayal of my wife
Downward spiral I corkscrewed
 
This affair was an accident
Never anything I intended
Broken marital sacrament  
I lived the lies I pretended
 
I fed her so many lies
Tricking her to be with me
I became who I despise
My blackened soul of misery
 
I burned down my family
What I did was so wrong  
Could have lived so happily
Now I'm lost and so alone
 
The ashes had forewarned
My self control was the threat
Muddied puddles from this storm
Living with constant regret
 
Laying there I'm staring
Mind racing eyes open
Endless thoughts uncaring
Haunting me I'm broken