the void

my sadness blooms inside my soul lovesick lilies and daffodils
with a sick hopefulness that makes me cry
bitter tears of an open heart that doesn't know when to quit

I'm a faded rose that's been plucked and lost its color
I hold the memories of our good days
realizing you're holding babies breath from your new union
I smile at your happiness a crooked smile with big soulful eyes

you will always find happiness you're always content in the moment
my intensity took you back and you loved the burn
but it wasn't shared by your entourage

you need the pack and I run wild like the wind blowing through your need
dwindling in the energy I burn my heart open
ash on my tongue regretting the words my soul uttered
my face so honest I can never lie to anyone
whatever I think it's there in plain view

I scorch with an intensity that sends people pulling back
I'm no good for you my soul is a void that swirls in deep black
drinking the life out of the air dazzling lights draw you close
and when you realize my fault its too late

I cry for the loss forgetting I'm not human that I;m cursed to feed
because the part of me that loves is a heathen animal that wanders empty
with no validity because I dare once touch the abyss
seeking answers and it spoke with a loud voice welcome in