waiting for you in the dark

I miss you
and I want to say
come get lost in the dark with me
so we can make beautiful art
forget to breathe
and make ourselves immortal

But I don't
instead I just let us be
and imagine these conversations
we could have
if I wasn't such a coward

Because I don't have the words
to say how much
I'm scared of love
so pretend this
is as good as it gets

I pretend that your hands
aren't buried in my chest
wrenching my heart beat
into life on those days
when I want to rip
out my own insides
and paint my world
the colour of death

I miss you
and I want to say
I'm sorry I'm not brave
my heart is forever
waiting for you in the dark