Deaf In The Water

 
To know what I was made for
I'm not soul searching anymore
Once I got my foot in the door
I felt my once idle heart soar
 
I had to go it all alone
Test the waters and be shown
The way to get to that place
I always knew was my home
 
But still I find when I arise
Words are meaningless and contrived  
When written  merely to impress  
To which is left a bloody mess