You don’t know me at all

Many reasons Dragon—  I utilize Dup as a sound board, free therapy, and journal. Other times for writting my witchy stories and sometimes even a funny poem or two, ha even on a rare occasion a love poem and or erotica. Today it’s a journal thingy 😐 But to answer your question, I hate myself for wasting my life, mostly.    
Thank for looking 🧡🖤    
Jackie

It will definitely get better it’s the loud silence and realization I wasted 9 years on a beast in the end.

hello Jackie I trust beings until they prove I can't but pain is pain I'm more male than female I am cursed in a way with a female form I don't trust some women I don't trust some men I made a vow to someone in heaven I am here on earth to keep that promish I'm queer thinking I want sanctuary I want my sisters I want you to know I didn't betray our coven but dont trust broomie according to the flesh outfit trust your instinct and keep the wise warlock off of you and know I got your back you reintroduced me to my other half I am eternally grateful follow laws of your coven and trust your black magic I'm paying attention... I love you brother/sisterhood.

Hi Raven,
So Broomie is my nickname online to which is my first online nickname i gave myself way before Zazzles existed. My avitar is simply art. I am not religious at all and do not subscribe to any deities. There is only space and the universe created everything afaic. No offence to your belief.
As for your declaration of having my back thanks for that. This warlock is actually leaving for good this time, I am ready and have already accepted the failure of another relationship. 9 fk years this time. And while i have said this many many many times before this time it’s truly over.  
Love Jackie xoxox

oh my apologie you have met the old man have you the entities of the dark can't wait to taste you and give you proof of life.

That pesky self-hatred... it's ridiculous because in some cases people love us to pieces and we're hating ourselves...why?  Who knows.  I know change is hard but is the change going to improve your quality of life then let it hug you and when you're ready hug it back.

LJ

Yes, that pesky self hating, It’s a bitch. Lj And yes It’s gonna be for the best. It definitely is I just finally accepted it and I do believe after the silence and that whole like, reality thing sets in, I’ll be fine as corny as this saying is it’s true, time does heal all wounds and it will.
Love you little sis always

Jackie xoxox ♥️

Powerful write here. I can relate with these feelings and thoughts.    
   
Ya know, I'm not gonna sit here and ask you why you hate yourself or tell you that life sucks and it will get better. Im not gonna tell you to stop hating yourself. If it was that simple itd be done already without someone telling you to do it. That's not helpful at all.    
   
I dont have an answer for you. Time doesn't heal all. That's a bitter truth. Some things stay with you til the the fucking end. They linger and eat at you.    
   
All i will do is tell you that I understand and you're not alone in your suffering.    
   
Something for you to read.    
https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/509660-the-hate-in-the-darkness/  
   
I will walk along side you and listen and understand if you want or need. I mean that.

Sounds like a plan, a damn good plan.
I will have a little look at the link u dropped :)
Thanks Dark-
Jackie ☺️

Oh and thanks for the RL👍🏻

Thanks for sharing this piece of you.

Aww shucks— I don’t really have too many people to talk with, so I use this place as my platform to vent, been doing it for years. Believe it or not, it keeps perspective in view, especially when I reread what I’ve written. Thank you for taking the time to read me, comment and toss this in your reading list.
Jackie 🤗

Well you just added one more to the short list. Trust me, that's why i found this place. My writing is all I have.

☺️🤗

I feel that way too. My writing ✍️ is my only outlet, Dark.

👏 👏 👏 👏 👏!! Nice 👌 ink spill 👏  listen zazzle it's easy to hate yourself and even harder to love yourself my friend!!!

Because when 🤔 you do it will always out way all the hate ok 👌!!

Peace ✌ and blessings 🙏 always 💖

Hey Richy ☺️ I appreciate your positivity but honestly, I’m gonna sit and stew in my self loathing, I need too, can’t really explain why right now, I mean I could, but it would take to long lol  
I just have to get through this and I will eventually. I do prefer to love myself, but right now there’s nothing to love. That’s my opinion and I’m sticking to it. (I got some fixing to do)

Thanks for looking buddy.
Jackie 🤗

mystery stew black white and blue all over I burned and I rose from the ash hope my coven doesn't write their magic down you cheat thiefs of always.

Zazzy, dear sister

Something happened when I read
five second tears fall

that just spoke out to me
I felt like opening a window and screaming this sentence out loud
they would only think oh its the weird woman in that house there
just kidding.

sending you a big hug
xoxo
your far North sister

Hello sweet beautiful sister of mine♥️
Yeah the line fell outtah the sky, and actually I was hoping u stumbled across this poem for that line alone :) I think the best Poetry is Freeform when it just falls out of your head and onto the page,I love when that happens.
Tell your neighbors to pipe down! 😂
Have a beautiful evening Rianne ♥️
Love
Jackir xoxox o

Oh by the way, thanks for the list, sister👍🏻
Loves you Rianne🌹♥️

Dear J,

This write perfectly captures those moments and traps we can fall into. This calls to mind all the years I’ve felt similarly and wondered how many years I squandered over one thing or another. Then the math got too complicated and I stopped. This is a lovely write of serious contemplation.
H🌷

Sweet sweet Honoria, my cousin lol it’s like a little girl who cried wolf. It’s actually happening this time. I am truly ready now, that’s all I can say. How have you been? I miss you. It’s always such a pleasure to see you on my page. Thanks for reading and leaving your thoughts. Love you.
Jackie ♥️♥️♥️♥️

I think we are all traditionalists in the sense we don't like change... but I hope life is getting better for you

Nice to meet you Kitten, life is always changing,
And it’s best to just roll with it. This change is gonna be good for me 100% so thank you for coming to visit me.  
Hope you are well and enjoying life :)  
Jackie ☺️

A lone to think and I think a lot. that is the truth. Very heart felt words and I see a lot of us feel you. Love and light. Fia xoxo

Hello Fia, nice to see you here and nice to meet you. I had a foster sister as a kid named Fia, she played the flute and was Dutch ☺️
Yeah sometimes it’s better to accept it by trying
to prepare, I suppose.
Thanks for leaving your comments and for the read
Jackie ☺️🧡🖤

You can't truly have wisdom if you cloud yourself with self hatred.  
Every day is a success. Every night is reward to rest easy.
All else is a bonus. You're richer than you think.

Thanks Styxian :) nice to see you.

Brilliant write. Appreciate you.






DL

Hi DL, thanks for another look ♥️
Jackie ☺️

Hey there Damian nice to meet you
Apprecite the visit and yoir thoughts.
Zazzles :)

I like this poem, I'm on a similar ride and I'm pretty sure the operator has fallen asleep.

Exactly, the ride is now over but there will always be another.
Nice to meet you Ryan . Not sure when you posted this comment, sorry for overlooking it. Nice to meet you if we haven’t meet already. Lol ☺️ hope things have gotten better for you.

Zazzles ☺️

We've met you put my rant on your reading list.
Anyway hope you've been well and things are going ok.

❤️👍🎄