The Lady Blue (About The Baby)

   Life isn't always so easy in the Big Easy. You'll see what I mean. Not too long after Gary and I tied the knot, I turned up pregnant. That was the good part but then the dreams began. My baby was going to be a beautiful blessing in our lives when born. However, I was having dreams I couldn't shake off of something bad happening to the child.  I just didn't understand why they were happening.  
 
   It's true that not all of my dreams come true. That is a good thing. The problem with it  is I never know one way or the other. It's just the way it goes for me.
 
     I have felt so on edge lately because I'm experiencing a lot of guilt and shame now that I'm married for stealing Carol's husband. I'm starting to believe that his wife has put a curse on me out of revenge. If nothing else, she probably hates me now. I certainly couldn't blame her.
     Gary doesn't believe in curses and insists that my fears have no root in reality. Neither does Carol hate me. I'm not convinced of either thing.
 
     Not long after that, I had a spontaneous miscarriage. The baby would have been a boy.