Now

I'm so fucking hurt
by the way that things went down.
If only you can understand
how much I need you now.
You told me that you'd be there
from the beginning to the end;
but now I have to live my life
without my bestest friend.

For now,
new chapters in my life
have shown me that I've lost my wife.
someone I thought I'd grow old with
truth is this pain I can't live with.
To know that you have blocked me
and sealed away your heart.
This changed my soul forever
this place I can't compart.

I thought we'd be together
through everything we've seen.
Truth is the day that changed it all
was the day you gave the ring.
From that moment on
I saw how much you changed.
I think it's when you understood
your life won't be the same.

When I found out that you relapsed
it shook me to my core.
No longer you were here
I'm changed forever more.
I found myself through madness.
How should I have become
from all the changes in my life
this pain has got me numb.

Tiffany Long
3.18.2024