Utterly Broken (my heart never stops)

in shadows
 i stand alone
silhouette of a heart
in ruins
Trembling
yearning to be held

Devoid of solace
consumed by pain

love haa always been
a cruel trickster
playing its game
teasing me
taunting
haunting

dreams of
eternal embrace,
but my heart
like a fool
with hope
believed the lie,

Now shattered
wounded
bleeding and numb.
every whispered word
every stolen glance
I held lovingly

 precious
fragments of gold
diamonds
onnly to realize
 they were
but smoke

phantoms
illusions
an empty void

I gave
my heart freely
without hesitation
ever vulnerable
totally
pure

yet it was
trampled upon
leaving behind
a trail
of broken
dreams.

heart
in relentless
torment
an affliction
that seeps
 into the soul

drowning
in the abyss
of unfulfilled desires,
gasping
for breath
suffocated by longing

painful masochism,
a prisoner of
unattainable love,
forever bound
to a fate
of crippled devotion

how can love
be so cruel
so unjust,
to give me
a heart that
yearns only for you

denied
warmth
of your touch
ñeaving me aching
sad and
utterly broken