Back Home to Her

Time demanded attention for solace    
Company, love, a familiar palace    
   
The drive did not deliver shrill pitches in my ear    
Calm music dashed dark thoughts    
The road was so clear    
   
Arriving released the tension building within my spine    
Some days away to sink the thoughts that plague this mind of mine    
Of course the smell of grass and smoke remind of a better time    
Excitement bubbles rhetoric which I cant confine    
   
Family connects us with the past    
Entwining us with our elders    
I slowly remember who I was    
Before I exited with her    
   
Why do I stay away    
And keep in that place of horror    
The walls are painted black and white    
Out here is where there's color    
   
I await    
To see the honest eyes of another    
Trust    
Love    
More ready than any cruelty to deliver    
   
The one I need is taken    
Devoted to a lover    
She almost disemboweled the last friend that tried to touch her    
   
But damn me now    
Can't stay away or ignore another word    
I ache to hear her song, yet suffer the chirps of a cycling bird    
The drive back is quickly harrowed by wind, rain, and dirt    
No matter what I play    
My stomach already starts to hurt.