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HYPERattentionDISORDERanxietyACTIVITYdeficitATTACK
shaky hands,
shaky breath
letting people down
important tasks
can’t remember
escape,
let me escape
distract me
please
structures burning down around me
emotions burning up inside me
grief burning deep within me
I am
burning
out
calm exterior
no one knows
SMILE!
haha, oops, sorry I forgot
am I losing my mind?
shoulders tight
can’t relax
breathe? – oh yeah, of course!
frantic overwhelm
listless apathy
no middle ground
The chatter goes on:
you
selfish,
stupid,
lazy ass
.
.
.
“Have you tried using a planner?”
Published 4th Apr 2023
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There's not much else to say.
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4th Apr 2023 9:04pm
5th Apr 2023 2:06am
5th Apr 2023 2:10am
Thanks for reading and for the support. I've lived with this brain for decades, but only recently started to find the right kind of support for my struggles.
I was having quite a moment when I wrote this!
Thanks again,
❤️k
I was having quite a moment when I wrote this!
Thanks again,
❤️k
4th Apr 2023 11:46pm
ADHD is my frienemey. Real love/hate. I live and die by the planner. My brain prefers not to engage in reality a good deal of the time, so the planner is necessary. I can relate to the anxious feelings. It had me frozen for a few years in my 30's. I'm swiftly approaching 50 and I find that, with age, I care less and less about the things that would have stopped me right in my tracks years ago.
I like the way you structured this poem. It's visually stimulating, and really portrays the poem subject. Nicely done.
I like the way you structured this poem. It's visually stimulating, and really portrays the poem subject. Nicely done.
5th Apr 2023 2:18am
I am past 50 and only diagnosed with ADHD a few months ago. It explains so much, and it pisses me off thinking of how my life, or even just my perception of myself, could have been different.
Oh hell yes to the planner! (Or whatever - for me it's my Google calendar AND a thousand alarms AND lists upon lists...) It's the well-meaning people who think maybe you had never thought of it that crack me up.
Thanks for reading! The structure was pretty much how my thoughts felt at the time - scattered.
❤️k
Oh hell yes to the planner! (Or whatever - for me it's my Google calendar AND a thousand alarms AND lists upon lists...) It's the well-meaning people who think maybe you had never thought of it that crack me up.
Thanks for reading! The structure was pretty much how my thoughts felt at the time - scattered.
❤️k
6th Apr 2023 11:33pm
Give it time, k. Study and learn about what you can do to deal with this.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
hugs,
buddhakitty.
6th Apr 2023 11:58pm
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6th Apr 2023 11:59pm
Thanks, Daniel. Writing this was probably the best thing I could do with that particular moment.
❤️k
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7th Apr 2023 2:52am
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11th May 2023 2:17am
Thank you so much for reading and leaving a comment! Sorry I must have missed it earlier... April was busy.
Glad you have the anxiety under control. It isn't much fun.
😎k
Glad you have the anxiety under control. It isn't much fun.
😎k
10th May 2023 4:58pm
Loved the format that ties so nicely to the themes here. It’s the self talk that pushes those to the edge.
Strong write
Strong write
11th May 2023 2:18am
Thank you. I really wanted to visually convey what I was experiencing at the moment. While still keeping it readable! Glad it worked for you.
❤️k
❤️k
