Drowning in my bed

I can't stop the panic
I don't know why
It's the panic of a child
Unable yet to swim
Children don't cry out
They don't splash around
They disappear under the surface
Down... Down through the chemical water
To the bottom... As the bubbles escape
I cannot cry out.. and I'm drowning
There's nothing to save me
So I drown, again, again, again
I stare in horror at the ceiling
As my chest painfully tightens
As the air bubbles out of my lungs
And I'm a child drowning again  
Chlorine burning my eyes, throat and lungs
No, theres no escape from this
There's only drowning and begging
Quietly begging for it to pass