What have i done?

What have i done to deserve this silent treatment?

Is it because of my sinful ways, lord?

Please my lord my god.
Why has thou forsaken me?

Everyone i know leaves me alone in this cold dark world.

I'm not mentally strong enough to deal with this.

I feel like crying.
I feel like sleeping.

I am feeling so weak now.
I am feeling so sad and depressed.

They say I LUV U.
Then they ghost you.

I don't deserve this misery.
Death is far better than the feeling of heartbreak.

Please god please, why?
I can't think straight.

Is this an act of deception?

This makes my self esteem deteriorate more and more.

Fucked up i feel.

So damn screwed up within my mind.
I see no way out of this dead feeling.
Angel of death, end this heartbreak.

If no one is to love me,
Truly love me.
Then end this suffering.

FUCK THIS MADNESS.
CAN I JUST GRADUATE OR MASTURBATE MY SOUL OUT OF THIS WORLD?