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3523
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I sat in your chair today.
Usually, I avoid it.
It still seems wrong
when anyone but you
occupies a space
only your big presence could fill.
Breathed in deep
from these inhereted lungs
and let you soak in.
(ˇˇ)
There is a photo,
You with Madison on your shoulders.
The epitome of grandpa
It hangs joyously
on the side of the extra fridge
in the hallway utility room
Like entering church,
it was fingers dipped of holy water
signing the cross.
Every single coming and going
passing it by
was a ritual
of whispered 'hello'
then, 'until next time.'
Until today,
3523 days later
it's gone without explanation
and so was my composure
the entire drive home.
(ˇˇˇ)
He would have been the peacekeeper
The one saying
that our alikeness isn't a detriment
and why "I should be the bigger person"
as her way
will always be unchanged
in it's abrasiveness.
Him, asking—needing me
to be properly patient
uncomplicated
and more importantly
like myself
Because he always knew
alike doesn't mean
identical.
Written by
Bluevelvete
Published 7th Apr 2022
| Edited 22nd Jun 2022
Author's Note
Missing my dad.... like crazy.
©Blu2022
#daddysgirl
©Blu2022
#daddysgirl
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Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 3:59am
always daddy's girl
beeding his rock ~ to steady
her passage through life
beeding his rock ~ to steady
her passage through life
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Ohhh AP!
Thanks so much for the lovely senryú poem-ply. It means so much that you leave your thoughts with me.
I hope you are doing well.. missed you!
Your NaPo writes are killing it, btw.
Always a pleasure to have you visit 🦋
Much love and appreciation from across the pond ✨
🌹 - 💙
B
Thanks so much for the lovely senryú poem-ply. It means so much that you leave your thoughts with me.
I hope you are doing well.. missed you!
Your NaPo writes are killing it, btw.
Always a pleasure to have you visit 🦋
Much love and appreciation from across the pond ✨
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 5:52am
Absolutely beautiful, heartfelt, tender. I know your pain I've lost both parents. My dad taught me everything except how to cope with his loss
Hugs across the pond sweetie
Love and light
Ron xx
Hugs across the pond sweetie
Love and light
Ron xx
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7th Apr 2022 5:55am
Awww... (solidarity hugs)
That's true... We never get taught quite how to deal with that.
I'm so grateful you had the relationship with them you did my dear. I'm not surprised they were good folks because they certainly raised a good son!!
Thanks for the lovely sentiments and your generous list add. It truly is meaningful to have you visit 🦋
Hugs and kisses
🌹 - 💙
B
That's true... We never get taught quite how to deal with that.
I'm so grateful you had the relationship with them you did my dear. I'm not surprised they were good folks because they certainly raised a good son!!
Thanks for the lovely sentiments and your generous list add. It truly is meaningful to have you visit 🦋
Hugs and kisses
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 5:55am
Dear BV,
Oh my. What a lovely homage, to be so loved and so missed. I love the closing stanza and the nod between alike/identical. There is something so wonderfully calming and so uniquely individual to have had someone who can anchor you in a storm that is truly special. This is so endearing and loving a poem it makes my heart ache. Xo
H🌷
Oh my. What a lovely homage, to be so loved and so missed. I love the closing stanza and the nod between alike/identical. There is something so wonderfully calming and so uniquely individual to have had someone who can anchor you in a storm that is truly special. This is so endearing and loving a poem it makes my heart ache. Xo
H🌷
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His absence was like a boulder pressing on my chest today and I had to write out some of that heaviness. Thank you so much for the extremely kind and compassionate comments, H. I am so awed and grateful you could feel all that I hoped to put out into the universe 🌌...
Much love, respect and endless appreciation, dear lady ✨
[ohh and btw - I seriously LOVED your most recent NaPo. Truly!
It's more real, true and gloriously open than most people dare. Which is an absolute 100% good thing and something that I strive for, yet often times fall short. Keep in mind that you really are a poet. You really can write and when you do, it moves people!
Just wanted you to know!! 👍🏻]
Loads of love your way ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
B
Much love, respect and endless appreciation, dear lady ✨
[ohh and btw - I seriously LOVED your most recent NaPo. Truly!
It's more real, true and gloriously open than most people dare. Which is an absolute 100% good thing and something that I strive for, yet often times fall short. Keep in mind that you really are a poet. You really can write and when you do, it moves people!
Just wanted you to know!! 👍🏻]
Loads of love your way ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
B
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7th Apr 2022 6:18am
Oh geez! Look at your lovely response to my comment as I signed back in to P.S. I forgot to tell you the photo is also beautiful. Thank you for such a gorgeous comment on the napo write. That is such a huge compliment I’m blushing in gratitude. Thank you. ❤️
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Awww, it's a weird pic selection, I know but the look on my dad's face can't be beat. I have a copy of this pic on my car sun visor....I love it.
You're very welcome about your well earned NaPo comments. They're awesome! It's just fact.
🌹 - x
You're very welcome about your well earned NaPo comments. They're awesome! It's just fact.
🌹 - x
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Anonymous
7th Apr 2022 6:09am
it's been just over sixty days for me passing memories, mine are unfortunately not as beautiful as yours but still tender. ok that outta the way cause you give hope in the grief process and i need that now in my life, i mean im doing exceptional considering but sorry im stoned..your poem resonated with me is what im getting to, its creation is remarkably crafted with love and sentiment...we carry their legacy, justice served here
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Sometimes being lit is definitely more helpful in the creative process as well as in the healing process.... are my beliefs.
Even if your family experience is different emotionally, loss is loss. I send out all my heartfelt condolences and sympathies for yours.
Write out all the anger, grief, pain, ache... Etc, that you can. It's truly some of the best therapy there is.
Thank you for stopping by to visit and for taking the time to leave such kind words and beautifully valuable feedback.
I hope I was able to lessen any pain, just a little bit.
Be well and be safe out there.
Please don't be a stranger -
🌹-B
Even if your family experience is different emotionally, loss is loss. I send out all my heartfelt condolences and sympathies for yours.
Write out all the anger, grief, pain, ache... Etc, that you can. It's truly some of the best therapy there is.
Thank you for stopping by to visit and for taking the time to leave such kind words and beautifully valuable feedback.
I hope I was able to lessen any pain, just a little bit.
Be well and be safe out there.
Please don't be a stranger -
🌹-B
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Anonymous
7th Apr 2022 6:56am
I appreciate you, i've been writing poetry for decades and it is my therapy...i have three pieces thus far on my loss. they've allowed me to progress.. i'm not sure if theyre all on here yet but i've come to find that i've grieved well thru art and one more piece on it will be it... i'll always write about her but not about that.....live in the legacy of those we loved
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Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 7:56am
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*deep breath*.... Ain't that the truth.
Thank you, DC.
I'm terrifically glad to see you 🦋
Hope things are going well.
🌹 - B
Thank you, DC.
I'm terrifically glad to see you 🦋
Hope things are going well.
🌹 - B
Re: Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 1:34pm
Things are very well. Been a busy man of late. Though I do like to stop by from time to time. Hope you are well as well 😁
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Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 8:05am
Firstly, congratulations this a magnificent poem. Strong in it's emotions, raw in its truth, beautiful in vulnerability. I loved it. I can't add much more than that, no amount of critique could give this justice. It truly is remarkable.
What I love about your writing most is that as a reader I'm never expecting anything anything, each write, is it's very own gold nugget.
Secondly, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know about this (I won't load personal experience all over your page) and I'm deeply sorry for your loss. I'm so glad you added the picture, the eyes tell a story of a happy man with a deep love of family and values... and those are the diamonds that make our world.
love at you my friend
Al
What I love about your writing most is that as a reader I'm never expecting anything anything, each write, is it's very own gold nugget.
Secondly, I'm so sorry for your loss. I know about this (I won't load personal experience all over your page) and I'm deeply sorry for your loss. I'm so glad you added the picture, the eyes tell a story of a happy man with a deep love of family and values... and those are the diamonds that make our world.
love at you my friend
Al
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Hey there, Al :)
Your thoughtful remarks reach in and caress/soothe that pesky little bit of deep hidden self doubt that can randomly rear it's ugly head. A big thank you for that, such generousity is not taken lightly. - 🦋
This pic was a hard choice... I added it exactly for the reason you mentioned. The look on my dad's face is totally priceless. He was healthier and not showing his illness at this time in my life, so that's why this particular image became the upload choice, even though my own life situation has changed dramatically, since. It's sort of weird using it but he was DEFINITELY diamond-bright shining that day, indeed... So, c'est la vie!
I'm so glad you felt conveyed truth here, that's really motivational for me to know. I'm deeply appreciative for all the loveliness shared and encouraging support, shown.
Much love your way ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
B
Your thoughtful remarks reach in and caress/soothe that pesky little bit of deep hidden self doubt that can randomly rear it's ugly head. A big thank you for that, such generousity is not taken lightly. - 🦋
This pic was a hard choice... I added it exactly for the reason you mentioned. The look on my dad's face is totally priceless. He was healthier and not showing his illness at this time in my life, so that's why this particular image became the upload choice, even though my own life situation has changed dramatically, since. It's sort of weird using it but he was DEFINITELY diamond-bright shining that day, indeed... So, c'est la vie!
I'm so glad you felt conveyed truth here, that's really motivational for me to know. I'm deeply appreciative for all the loveliness shared and encouraging support, shown.
Much love your way ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 9:11am
Your dad was a beautiful man who raised a beautiful soul.
I can deeply empathize with your feelings of loss.
I believe in the sacredness of remembrances.
I can deeply empathize with your feelings of loss.
I believe in the sacredness of remembrances.
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7th Apr 2022 12:45pm
Your ability to see beauty and joy in places and areas others might miss, makes me even more enchanted and you even more endearing.
The sacredness of remembrance (great title!)
Big hugs and much love, my friend 🙏
🌹 - S
🤗😘🤗😘🤗😘🤗
The sacredness of remembrance (great title!)
Big hugs and much love, my friend 🙏
🌹 - S
🤗😘🤗😘🤗😘🤗
Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 9:36am
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7th Apr 2022 9:52am
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Your words and visits (and hugs) are truly appreciated. Much thanks for leaving me your thoughts. I am sincerely appreciative that you felt some creativity and deep emotion, conveyed.
Many regards,
🌹-B
Many regards,
🌹-B
Anonymous
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Hey there Jay... Just a gentle reminder that your individual words and insights are always.. ALWAYS wanted and sought after... Just sayin'....
I'm so glad you felt the heft that I was actually trying to leave on the page. Writing it out, as much as possible... Being that my emotions ran enormously high yesterday.
Thank you for visiting and for leaving me with your truly lovely thoughts. I take them with me and hold them dear.
Warmest regards, dear friend 🙏
🌹 - 💙
B
I'm so glad you felt the heft that I was actually trying to leave on the page. Writing it out, as much as possible... Being that my emotions ran enormously high yesterday.
Thank you for visiting and for leaving me with your truly lovely thoughts. I take them with me and hold them dear.
Warmest regards, dear friend 🙏
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. 3523
7th Apr 2022 10:39pm
Sheding tears. Nice memory of your dad. He's alive in your heart. Keep on writing you strong beautiful smart sexy woman.
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7th Apr 2022 10:41pm
Awww... No tears, my friend 🙏.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and for stopping by, Francisco
I appreciate you.
🌹
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and for stopping by, Francisco
I appreciate you.
🌹
Re. 3523
8th Apr 2022 3:38am
My comment is simply echoing the chorus above; Bravo, you.
I truly enjoy reading about how relatives influence writers. It builds the character of the writer's psyche much of the time. You did a fine job of showing that influence here. And I truly enjoyed reading and understanding it.
I truly enjoy reading about how relatives influence writers. It builds the character of the writer's psyche much of the time. You did a fine job of showing that influence here. And I truly enjoyed reading and understanding it.
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Re: Re. 3523
9th Apr 2022 12:04pm
Thank you for the reverberations, dear friend. ;)
I'm glad you enjoyed reading this one. It means a lot to me that you take the time to say so.
I was in a funk and needed to vent my feelings of loss that never really seem to go away, only hide for spells at a time... Hence, this purge piece...
Again, much obliged.
Hope you are doing well.
🌹 - 💙
B
I'm glad you enjoyed reading this one. It means a lot to me that you take the time to say so.
I was in a funk and needed to vent my feelings of loss that never really seem to go away, only hide for spells at a time... Hence, this purge piece...
Again, much obliged.
Hope you are doing well.
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. 3523
8th Apr 2022 5:04am
I rarely cry after reading poems, but this got me. The thought of losing my father haunts me each day, as a daddy’s girl myself.. what a lucky dad he is to have you, a heartfelt dedication, and special rawness that I believe is written through grief. There’s beauty in that, and you’ve inked a masterpiece.
love to you
- fairy
love to you
- fairy
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Hey there, fairy :)
Your lovely comments are a true joy to read this morning. Thank you so much for stopping by to visit. I'm deeply heartened that you too, relate to that father/daughter bond. There's nothing quite like it. Please cherish the time you have with yours and make as many lasting beautiful memories now, that you and he can muster. (Just my own little thoughts that I've experienced through my loss and grief of missing my dad as much as I do)
You won't regret it in the end, I absolutely guarantee.
I'm so appreciative for the list add and for you taking the time to leave me your own thoughts, insights and intimate feelings— It sincerely means a lot to me, dear poetess.
(I look forward to my continued good fortune @ being able read your daily poems...)
Warmest regards,
🌹 - 💙-🧚🏻♀️
-B
Your lovely comments are a true joy to read this morning. Thank you so much for stopping by to visit. I'm deeply heartened that you too, relate to that father/daughter bond. There's nothing quite like it. Please cherish the time you have with yours and make as many lasting beautiful memories now, that you and he can muster. (Just my own little thoughts that I've experienced through my loss and grief of missing my dad as much as I do)
You won't regret it in the end, I absolutely guarantee.
I'm so appreciative for the list add and for you taking the time to leave me your own thoughts, insights and intimate feelings— It sincerely means a lot to me, dear poetess.
(I look forward to my continued good fortune @ being able read your daily poems...)
Warmest regards,
🌹 - 💙-🧚🏻♀️
-B
Re. 3523
9th Apr 2022 1:36am
Precious, Precious. Oh, I feel this one so deeply.
I love these type of confessional poems, so sweet, vivid, so life and love affirming in their sadness
Joyously so.
Love you Ms Blue,
You are a poet's poet.
I love these type of confessional poems, so sweet, vivid, so life and love affirming in their sadness
Joyously so.
Love you Ms Blue,
You are a poet's poet.
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Re: Re. 3523
9th Apr 2022 11:32am
Margo!!!
You're a beautiful sight for sore eyes, indeed!
Thank you for visiting and for your extremely kind remarks that fill me with enormous joy and pride in a job well done.... What more could any poet ask for!! I am humbled with immense gratitude-🙏
It's a true pleasure to see you 🦋
I hope you are doing well, dear lady.
Much love and well wishes sent your way ✨ 💫
🌹 - 💙
—B
You're a beautiful sight for sore eyes, indeed!
Thank you for visiting and for your extremely kind remarks that fill me with enormous joy and pride in a job well done.... What more could any poet ask for!! I am humbled with immense gratitude-🙏
It's a true pleasure to see you 🦋
I hope you are doing well, dear lady.
Much love and well wishes sent your way ✨ 💫
🌹 - 💙
—B
Re. 3523
9th Apr 2022 1:39am
It is uncanny that I wrote about a father, daughter banquet dance today. 💕 Your father is a handsome man!
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Re: Re. 3523
9th Apr 2022 11:40am
Hahaha... He would have LOVED you for that comment and totally hammed it up, too. He was a charmer.. Lol...
I'll certainly be checking out your poem!!
🌹 - 💙💙💙💙
xo
I'll certainly be checking out your poem!!
🌹 - 💙💙💙💙
xo
Re: Re. 3523
10th Apr 2022 1:46am
He is, absolutely! I would appreciate the read when you have time, of course! I respect you feedback so much! Thank you doll! 😘😘😘🦋
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Re. 3523
9th Apr 2022 11:35am
the extra fridge
~~~~
dear BlueVelvete
i like the beauty of preservation painted here
earthly and ephemeral
a warm smile
silent lotus
~~~~
dear BlueVelvete
i like the beauty of preservation painted here
earthly and ephemeral
a warm smile
silent lotus
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Yeah, I adored that pic hanging on the side of the extra fridge... Lol...
I'm extremely grateful for the warm smile, your enormous kindness and most of all your loveliness in visiting, silent lotus.
It's always such a pleasure and sincere joy.
I hope all is well with you - 💙
Much love and appreciation,
🌹 - B
I'm extremely grateful for the warm smile, your enormous kindness and most of all your loveliness in visiting, silent lotus.
It's always such a pleasure and sincere joy.
I hope all is well with you - 💙
Much love and appreciation,
🌹 - B
Re. 3523
10th Apr 2022 10:59am
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Thank you, LilD.
I was in such a funk the day I wrote this and just missing my dad, feeling at little bit lost and a lot bit angry /cheated... I guess those stages of grief can sometimes come back to rear their ugly heads when least expected.
I very much appreciate you taking the time to visit and to leave your kind feedback.
Hope you and Jade are doing well - 💙
🌹 - B
I was in such a funk the day I wrote this and just missing my dad, feeling at little bit lost and a lot bit angry /cheated... I guess those stages of grief can sometimes come back to rear their ugly heads when least expected.
I very much appreciate you taking the time to visit and to leave your kind feedback.
Hope you and Jade are doing well - 💙
🌹 - B
Re. 3523
11th Apr 2022 5:42am
There is a bond across the genders
daughter father that is so unique
that wit and encouragement that only he can give
at times when one's perspective is so bleak
The glue that brings a family together
is that branches of that bond are still alive
not gone even with the loss of his physical presence
in that way what he stood for still thrives
daughter father that is so unique
that wit and encouragement that only he can give
at times when one's perspective is so bleak
The glue that brings a family together
is that branches of that bond are still alive
not gone even with the loss of his physical presence
in that way what he stood for still thrives
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13th Apr 2022 4:32am
Hey there, J
I completely agree that a deeply connected father/daughter bond is one that lasts a lifetime and beyond into the ether of infinitum...Even when the physical presence is long gone... there's that inkling that remains...
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me,
it's always a nice treat to see you 🦋
Be well and be safe out there
🌹 - B
I completely agree that a deeply connected father/daughter bond is one that lasts a lifetime and beyond into the ether of infinitum...Even when the physical presence is long gone... there's that inkling that remains...
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me,
it's always a nice treat to see you 🦋
Be well and be safe out there
🌹 - B
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Anonymous
26th Apr 2022 7:27pm
Hey Blue…..sorry for your sadness, the sacred ones we luv leave this world, their spirits are always among us, hope you find comfort in feeling His comforting spiritual touches as the wind hugs you, beautiful ink, purple luv & hugs xo :)
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12th Jun 2022 5:43am
Your words leave me speechless, purple luv!!
Sorry for the delayed response... my biggest apologies - 🙏
I'm deeply appreciative of your abundant kind thoughts....and the touching graciousness.
🌹 - 💜💜💜
Sorry for the delayed response... my biggest apologies - 🙏
I'm deeply appreciative of your abundant kind thoughts....and the touching graciousness.
🌹 - 💜💜💜
Re. 3523
1st Jun 2022 5:34pm
Hmm, this just tugs at the heart. We could hear a voice, old, wise, patient, giving that advise.
Thank you for sharing Blue. I can only begin to imagine how much this means to you.
Thank you for sharing Blue. I can only begin to imagine how much this means to you.
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12th Jun 2022 5:45am
Sorry for the late reply, dear Walter.
... you nailed it... it's a favorite, indeed.
Thank so much for taking the time to leave and for leaving me your thoughts.
It means so much to me
🌹 - B
... you nailed it... it's a favorite, indeed.
Thank so much for taking the time to leave and for leaving me your thoughts.
It means so much to me
🌹 - B
Re. 3523
12th Jun 2022 5:37am
I will be back to give the reply you deserve
i will say this for now, you/this poem made me cry now that’s talent beautiful lady ♥️
i will say this for now, you/this poem made me cry now that’s talent beautiful lady ♥️
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12th Jun 2022 5:43am
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12th Jun 2022 5:48am
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12th Jun 2022 5:59am
You're too sweet.... depending on the day.... sometimes it runs dry..lol...
Thank you, again.... I'm so glad you like what you read.
It's very inspiring and motivational.
Loves you, lady!!!
Thank you, again.... I'm so glad you like what you read.
It's very inspiring and motivational.
Loves you, lady!!!
Re. 3523
22nd Jun 2022 8:01am
Velvety,
Though this is a morning situation, u truly keys of keyboard tell it like, u are talking to yourself in the mirror practicing for a part within a theatre scrip. And u do it so well, it intoxicates me to become more in tuned with the subject.
Though this is a morning situation, u truly keys of keyboard tell it like, u are talking to yourself in the mirror practicing for a part within a theatre scrip. And u do it so well, it intoxicates me to become more in tuned with the subject.
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22nd Jun 2022 8:06am
I'm delighted you're becoming more familiar with the different types of poems I've written. That's so very kind of you, Birchel, thank you.
It's always nice to be appreciated and I sincerely thank you for making me feel that.
All the best to you,
🌹 - B
It's always nice to be appreciated and I sincerely thank you for making me feel that.
All the best to you,
🌹 - B
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22nd Jun 2022 3:48pm
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20th Sep 2022 6:07am
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20th Sep 2022 6:09am
I am glad you could relate and feel from a similar pool of emotions, that's meaningful... thank you.
🌹 💙
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