My Addiction

My addiction...
My desire to watch my crimson blood flow hits me...
This time I do not resist...I welcome it.
Oddly it makes me relax. Watching the beautiful scarlet red droplets slide gracefully down my hand and off my fingertips.
Its messed up but its my comfort. My twisted fate soon awaits as the blood flows freely.
I am free in this short moment. Horror strikes as I realize my betrayal.
I am ashamed. With a heavy heart I close my eyes as now the sleep of death envelopes me.
Goodnight cruel world. I shall see you when I wake from this never ending nightmare.
My battered soul is handed over to the cold welcoming sleep.
Now you know of my terrible addiction.
Goodbye...