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lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survival. (+Spoken Word)
I used to be
light and airy
floating along
all niceties and sweetness
sifting days upon days
of warm sunshine
and soft grass
between my toes
I used to laugh easily
finding humor
in the weird and unusual
a sound filled
with genuine joy
mischievous, yet alluring
always looking forward
to a really great punchline
and the belly ache
from nonstop giggles
I used to sing
and dance
of soulfulness
that seared mighty
as only a broken bird could
haunting melodies
so strange and peculiar
songs that attracted
but only as an oddity would
I used to love
with sheer abandon
never giving a second thought
about pain or suffering
what that means, really
or words like unrequited
then, a word spoke
like a foreign language
that I would eventually learn
to speak, oh so fluently
I used to be smart
with a solid head
on my shoulders
living graciously
with a keen sense of purpose
and understanding, quickly
the ins and outs
of certain complexities
that would soon
boggle and mystify
I used to not worry
seriously
never stopping
to reflect or ponder
never allowing
a small simmer, to boil
no carving wounds
that continually bled
or a purge,
from deep within
that, which tears raw
your insides
in pain so fierce
it would silence
most aching voices
I used to be another me
someone once well cocooned—
a shadow
of something familiar
one that has learned
deep lessons
cloaked in pain,
patience,
wisdom and a hopeful
redemptive love
Now,
this me is schooled,
graduated in all
and everything
that used to be
a sort of lifetime packed
into a year and a half
recreating,
in ways hard fought
battle worn
and full of survival
blossoming to become
this incarnation of me
breathing in magic
and
still waiting
to
finally
be
set free
Written by
Bluevelvete
Published 1st Aug 2021
| Edited 11th Nov 2021
Author's Note
©Blu2021
Thoughts of changes since the pandemic started, until now.
Thanks for everything, DUP.
*tips my hat...
💙Blu
🌹
Thoughts of changes since the pandemic started, until now.
Thanks for everything, DUP.
*tips my hat...
💙Blu
🌹
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Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 5:06am
It seems the only way for us to truly learn our life lessons is to go through the rough patches. The easier paths , yes we stumble sometimes but the lessons are never truly hammered home. To tight Lady
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
1st Aug 2021 2:25pm
That's a very astute point, Me. I agree, totally. It makes us more grateful for what we do have or what we can accomplish. It's like spoiling your kids... if you do, they'll never understand the value of hard work and making something of yourself on your own.....
I appreciate you reading, the awesome insight and your continued support and encouragements.
🌹 - 💙
B
I appreciate you reading, the awesome insight and your continued support and encouragements.
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 5:40am
The world is changing and we fight the system to be free. Keep on writing you strong beautiful smart sexy woman.
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
1st Aug 2021 2:25pm
It's a beginning anyway!! I thank you for reading and your comments, Francisco... 🌹
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 6:25am
Plenty of change for us all beautiful, some good some bad but all a lesson in life. But throughout all the change one thing will remain constant I'm on TEAM BLUE
Hugs beautiful poetess
Love and light
Ron xx
Hugs beautiful poetess
Love and light
Ron xx
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1st Aug 2021 6:35am
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1st Aug 2021 2:26pm
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
Anonymous
1st Aug 2021 6:35am
All this in the course of the pandemic?
Wow...that's...kind of amazing...
Maybe?
If I had to look at my development, let's say, from the time it started, up to now...I'd say I've become more...not really cynical, but apathetic...vaguely disillusioned with a society--call it modern, post-industrial, 21st century--that I wasn't real enamored with, to begin with.
Me [November 2019] : (sigh; disillusioned with modern life)
Alter-ego Me: Cheer up, things could be worse.
Me: (cheering up)
[Sure enough...things got worse]
Wow...that's...kind of amazing...
Maybe?
If I had to look at my development, let's say, from the time it started, up to now...I'd say I've become more...not really cynical, but apathetic...vaguely disillusioned with a society--call it modern, post-industrial, 21st century--that I wasn't real enamored with, to begin with.
Me [November 2019] : (sigh; disillusioned with modern life)
Alter-ego Me: Cheer up, things could be worse.
Me: (cheering up)
[Sure enough...things got worse]
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Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 6:39am
I used to be a lot funnier as a kid and not so up tight. It's hard to even know that person sometimes but there are moments :)
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
1st Aug 2021 2:27pm
It's nice to try and access, sometimes... or at least remember!!
Thanks, Jenny!
🌹 - 💙
B
Thanks, Jenny!
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 8:00am
Oh my God, Blue. This is so ... complete. A circle of life within your prose. I have never read anything so sad and inspiring or so beautiful. You've final let the universe of your soul out. You are free Blue, you just don't know it yet but what I know is: in seeing being free as a goal, the goal will always be just out of reach, beckoning like a lover you ache for but can never reach. Being free as a journey is different and has no goal, nothing to measure, and no completion. I've compared you to goddesses before never realizing you are a new goddess for the modern world, equal to the goddesses that came before. I even, in my arrogance, said that I saw you but I never saw this beautiful becoming of your spirit. Peace
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
Your comments/thoughts/insights are so very moving, Richard. I am utterly blown away and can't even comprehend a reply that would even begin to suffice. I thank you for reading and for being in tune with me, for a large percentage of my writing. It has meant a lot to me.... So so much!
I am extremely grateful for you dear poet...beyond measure ... 🙇♀️
🌹 - 💙
Be well and much love your way, ✨
-Blu
I am extremely grateful for you dear poet...beyond measure ... 🙇♀️
🌹 - 💙
Be well and much love your way, ✨
-Blu
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 9:20am
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1st Aug 2021 10:32am
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
Anonymous
1st Aug 2021 10:48am
I think I'm taking this the whole wrong way,so please forgive me if I am ..but..
... 💔💔💔💔
... 💔💔💔💔
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
1st Aug 2021 2:29pm
It's not wrong but it's also 💙💙🦋....
A combo of.
🌹 - 💋
💙♠ 🐇 🌈 🐲
xoxo
(You're so fucking awesome!)
Always remember that!!!
A combo of.
🌹 - 💋
💙♠ 🐇 🌈 🐲
xoxo
(You're so fucking awesome!)
Always remember that!!!
Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
Anonymous
- Edited 1st Aug 2021 3:48pm
1st Aug 2021 3:46pm
💙♠️🌈
Glad there's a enough blue hearts in there for balance 💙💙
Reminds me of me, I was never quite any of those things, I've always been...tortured and melancholy. So I went from all that to being unlocked by trauma and live alike. Everything I had muzzled in myself fought to break through and it has. I'm still trying to figure it all out
Thank you, and you know? You're pretty badass too 💙🌹
Glad there's a enough blue hearts in there for balance 💙💙
Reminds me of me, I was never quite any of those things, I've always been...tortured and melancholy. So I went from all that to being unlocked by trauma and live alike. Everything I had muzzled in myself fought to break through and it has. I'm still trying to figure it all out
Thank you, and you know? You're pretty badass too 💙🌹
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
3rd Aug 2021 5:30am
Sometimes it takes awhile to learn new lessons of self awareness while continuing to heal and come to terms with a past that has left deep imprints but hopefully none of permanence....
From one badass to another—A reminder that you're a FORCE and a particularly lovely "whole package"... We all have self improving that should be something that's an ongoing process but it doesn't detract from your a mind, heart or soul that's as precious and keen as yours.
Thank you for reading and allowing me to be a small part of your journey /experiences, my dear friend .... Such a true joy! ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹
Blu
From one badass to another—A reminder that you're a FORCE and a particularly lovely "whole package"... We all have self improving that should be something that's an ongoing process but it doesn't detract from your a mind, heart or soul that's as precious and keen as yours.
Thank you for reading and allowing me to be a small part of your journey /experiences, my dear friend .... Such a true joy! ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹
Blu
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 12:42pm
My job has been making us wear mask regardless of vaccination. It has been rather sad to me since I feel it is a huge step back. Hopefully not for long.
Awsome poem, friend.
Awsome poem, friend.
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
1st Aug 2021 2:31pm
Well my state of Florida refuses to accept the fact that vaccinations mean less sick people and we have seen nothing but spikes and increases in Tampa within the last 2 to 3 months... it's truly sickening.... sigh.... I want to cry sometimes, the idiocy is overwhelming....
I hear you, DC
Thanks for the kind words and your thoughtful comments. It's always a pleasure, my friend 🙏🏻
🌹 - B
I hear you, DC
Thanks for the kind words and your thoughtful comments. It's always a pleasure, my friend 🙏🏻
🌹 - B
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
1st Aug 2021 1:03pm
Ok now you've made this piece so much better I love your accent. I'd listen to you reading a Pizza menu
Absolutely brilliant you are truly gifted beautiful
Love and light
Ron xx
Absolutely brilliant you are truly gifted beautiful
Love and light
Ron xx
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
1st Aug 2021 2:32pm
hahaha.... that's quite a stellar compliment!! I am glad someone likes the sound of my voice and the last spoken word for a while!!
🌹 - 💙
xo
🌹 - 💙
xo
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
2nd Aug 2021 1:15am
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2nd Aug 2021 6:09am
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
2nd Aug 2021 1:57am
It possessed a cathartic release, I felt, like the empathy for a long Covid sufferer
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
2nd Aug 2021 6:11am
I am glad you could feel that catharsis, slip. I appreciate your kind words, muchly...
Nice to see you stop by, thank you
🌹 - B
Nice to see you stop by, thank you
🌹 - B
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
Powerful ink Blue! Everyday I read a chapter of the Tao De Ching...chapter 5 is my favorite...The tao treats all things like straw dogs, a wise person understands this.
My favorite Daoist (Taoist) story comes from the "Book of Liezi"...
There was once a farmer in ancient China who owned a horse. “You are so lucky!” his neighbours told him, “to have a horse to pull the cart for you!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
One day he didn’t latch the gate properly and the horse ran off. “Oh no! What a disaster!” his neighbours cried. “Such terrible misfortune!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
A few days later the horse returned, bringing with it six wild horses. “How fantastic! You are so lucky,” his neighbours told him. “Now you are rich!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
The following week the farmer’s son was breaking-in one of the wild horses when it kicked out and broke his leg. “Oh no!” the neighbours cried, “such bad luck, all over again!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
The next day soldiers came and took away all the young men to fight in the war. The farmer’s son was left behind. “You are so lucky!” his neighbours cried. “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
Whenever we interpret a situation as being a ‘problem’ or an ‘opportunity’ it shapes the way we feel, which shapes the way that we respond.
The story of the Taoist Farmer shows we can never know how a situation is going to turn out.
This story always brings me a little serenity in todays chaotic world my friend.
Love...Harry X
My favorite Daoist (Taoist) story comes from the "Book of Liezi"...
There was once a farmer in ancient China who owned a horse. “You are so lucky!” his neighbours told him, “to have a horse to pull the cart for you!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
One day he didn’t latch the gate properly and the horse ran off. “Oh no! What a disaster!” his neighbours cried. “Such terrible misfortune!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
A few days later the horse returned, bringing with it six wild horses. “How fantastic! You are so lucky,” his neighbours told him. “Now you are rich!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
The following week the farmer’s son was breaking-in one of the wild horses when it kicked out and broke his leg. “Oh no!” the neighbours cried, “such bad luck, all over again!” “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
The next day soldiers came and took away all the young men to fight in the war. The farmer’s son was left behind. “You are so lucky!” his neighbours cried. “Maybe,” the farmer replied.
Whenever we interpret a situation as being a ‘problem’ or an ‘opportunity’ it shapes the way we feel, which shapes the way that we respond.
The story of the Taoist Farmer shows we can never know how a situation is going to turn out.
This story always brings me a little serenity in todays chaotic world my friend.
Love...Harry X
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
Harry,
You definitely highlighted a really great point of perspective and different way of looking at or processing situations /outcomes, which really does comfort. I very much appreciate your thoughts and I adore that you've taken the time to leave me this passage to ponder and possibly benefit from; seeing things from a way that I might not have ever considered....
What a beautiful gift!
Thank you my dear friend 🙏🏻
I am so grateful and blessed to have you stop by to visit and listen in 🦋
Best wishes and thoughts your way ✨
🌹 - 💙
You definitely highlighted a really great point of perspective and different way of looking at or processing situations /outcomes, which really does comfort. I very much appreciate your thoughts and I adore that you've taken the time to leave me this passage to ponder and possibly benefit from; seeing things from a way that I might not have ever considered....
What a beautiful gift!
Thank you my dear friend 🙏🏻
I am so grateful and blessed to have you stop by to visit and listen in 🦋
Best wishes and thoughts your way ✨
🌹 - 💙
Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
3rd Aug 2021 2:07am
I love the the therapeutic use of relativity, skepticism and perspectivism that I find and love in Daoism, particularly in the techings of Zhuangzi and Liezi.
Love and peace, Blue.
Love and peace, Blue.
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
6th Aug 2021 6:39am
Thanks, Tim.
I appreciate you taking the time to listen and leave your thoughts.
Last reading /poem for awhile, so be well and hopefully stay engaged!
🌹 - S
I appreciate you taking the time to listen and leave your thoughts.
Last reading /poem for awhile, so be well and hopefully stay engaged!
🌹 - S
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
2nd Aug 2021 9:25pm
My God, this is a masterpiece, Blue 💙💙💙. I keep wanting to tell you which stanzas resonate the most, but they all do. This is such a beautifully crafted and spoken yarn of pure poetic symmetry. Nothing out of place, trite, forced or coercive. I absolutely adore it. 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
6th Aug 2021 6:57am
Ohhh WOW!
Margo, my darling lady!!! You have me blushing to me deepest red! I am literally one big smile ☺ reading your thoughtful comments and I am basking so humbly but thoroughly in the kindness you bestow...I am so grateful for it, the generous list add and the time you spend with me and my writing. I cannot thank you enough for all the seriously awesome support you've shown me from the beginning of your time here on DU.
I really don't take that lightly and I will always be so so grateful. - 🙏🏻
Much love,
🌹 - B
Margo, my darling lady!!! You have me blushing to me deepest red! I am literally one big smile ☺ reading your thoughtful comments and I am basking so humbly but thoroughly in the kindness you bestow...I am so grateful for it, the generous list add and the time you spend with me and my writing. I cannot thank you enough for all the seriously awesome support you've shown me from the beginning of your time here on DU.
I really don't take that lightly and I will always be so so grateful. - 🙏🏻
Much love,
🌹 - B
Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
22nd Aug 2021 4:01pm
Thank you for responding so sweetly. I know what a generous and thankful spirit you are bc it resonates all throughout your work and your comments. It is such a privilege to find a kindred spirit in any respect these awful, awful days...but one that sings the blues in your key...that is something truly special. Anyway, I hope you are having a wonderful day, and I'm sorry this is so late. ❤❤❤
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
22nd Aug 2021 4:07pm
You made me smile from ear to ear!! ... Thanks Margo, you are such a great joy to have her with us!!
Returned sentiments, of well wishes, my dear poetess.🙏🏻 ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
Blue
Returned sentiments, of well wishes, my dear poetess.🙏🏻 ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
Blue
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
3rd Aug 2021 9:04am
Love love love this ... first the repetition hammers home that things have changed ... "I used to be" ... the flow is smooth ... the cadence forceful but not out of control ... like a relentless tide ... again you demonstrate your mastery of spacing ... get introspection ... totally relevant theme ... all packaged up in what I think is one of your very best in a collection of great poetry ... well done dear poetess ...
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
6th Aug 2021 6:50am
Awww... Thank you so very much, LilD.
I am extremely honored by such kind and lovely remarks. It means so much that you think this write (and I) is worthy and meaningful. It makes taking a break from this place a little bit easier knowing and feeling that I am leaving on a high note.
Your support and endless encouragement is something I carry with me, everyday. Even if I'm not here on DU, I still feel that warmth and awesome energy you instill. I leave you all my deepest, many and heartfelt thank you's. I always knew /know that your genuine interest comes from a true brilliantly, beautiful place that's just as important and empathic as the place from whence your imaginative inspiration flows.... oh *sigh*.... (in the best way!)
I have been and I am undeniably lucky, to call you friend and maybe one day I'll get up enough courage to even be able to call you peer, as well.
Be well and much love your way, dear sweet poetess... ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
-Susan
I am extremely honored by such kind and lovely remarks. It means so much that you think this write (and I) is worthy and meaningful. It makes taking a break from this place a little bit easier knowing and feeling that I am leaving on a high note.
Your support and endless encouragement is something I carry with me, everyday. Even if I'm not here on DU, I still feel that warmth and awesome energy you instill. I leave you all my deepest, many and heartfelt thank you's. I always knew /know that your genuine interest comes from a true brilliantly, beautiful place that's just as important and empathic as the place from whence your imaginative inspiration flows.... oh *sigh*.... (in the best way!)
I have been and I am undeniably lucky, to call you friend and maybe one day I'll get up enough courage to even be able to call you peer, as well.
Be well and much love your way, dear sweet poetess... ✨ 💫 ✨
🌹 - 💙
-Susan
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
3rd Aug 2021 10:46pm
The use of repetition powerful paints the process of growth and development seen in the final lines. It's a well-constructed journey of self-awareness. Beautifully powerful.
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
22nd Aug 2021 4:04pm
Thank you so much for reading and your extremely kind remarks.... I am so grateful!
It's always so nice to have someone stop by to read and... sorry I missed this one!
🌹 - 💙
B
It's always so nice to have someone stop by to read and... sorry I missed this one!
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
4th Aug 2021 10:19am
Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
6th Aug 2021 6:37am
I am glad you enjoyed listening Cipher
All my warmest regards and appreciations.
🌹 - 💙
B
All my warmest regards and appreciations.
🌹 - 💙
B
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
Anonymous
7th Aug 2021 2:28am
Awe Blue…….your voice is beautifully calming…….tipping my pen in respect to your talent…….it seems life has so many changes in such little time…….sometimes we adapt……other times it’s almost to much to deal with…….I’m actually lost for words to how I felt from this amazing ink…….RL for me…….purple luv & hugs xo :)
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
8th Aug 2021 00:54am
Ohhh my, flowergirl!!
You have me soaring into the stratosphere of kind loveliness with the impact of your generous remarks..... ✨ 🌥 ☁️🌤️☁️✨
I humbly and completely thank you, my dear.
We poets are so uplifted by having you here with us on DUP. Please don't ever go ANYWHERE.
lol.... (I totally mean it!!...) Your purple sparkle is a sight to behold and permeates such goodness.
I am so grateful for it and you.
Returned purple 💜 luvs and hugs!!
🌹 - Blu
You have me soaring into the stratosphere of kind loveliness with the impact of your generous remarks..... ✨ 🌥 ☁️🌤️☁️✨
I humbly and completely thank you, my dear.
We poets are so uplifted by having you here with us on DUP. Please don't ever go ANYWHERE.
lol.... (I totally mean it!!...) Your purple sparkle is a sight to behold and permeates such goodness.
I am so grateful for it and you.
Returned purple 💜 luvs and hugs!!
🌹 - Blu
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
11th Aug 2021 2:19am
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11th Aug 2021 5:23am
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
12th Aug 2021 00:33am
God, you really know how to write the inner transformation the pandemic brought to yourself with the authority of a genuine self-sailer through this universe of suffering and sorrow. I am amazed by the depth of this poem. Truthfully at first, it read like an interpersonal relationships evolution until I read the note that it was about the pandemic's influence on your inner being. Either way, it is profound and tells a story. That is priceless in itself.
Xo
John
Xo
John
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
12th Aug 2021 7:11am
I guess it was a combination of a bit of both really.... it may have started about the pandemic but might have morphed into something different as I went along... lol.... it took me where it took me! I am so very happy you enjoyed reading /listening. Spoken word is still something that am not entirely confident in but I hope to continue to increase my skills there!
Your summations mean so much, my dear and I wholeheartedly thank you!
🌹 - 💙
xo - Susan
Your summations mean so much, my dear and I wholeheartedly thank you!
🌹 - 💙
xo - Susan
Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought survi
29th Sep 2022 3:17am
This is a magnificent piece of your writing and your voice. I feel much the same about recent years, though cannot write so compelling a piece. So glad to see all the support you have here :)
Stay safe in the hurricane......
Stay safe in the hurricane......
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Re: Re. lessons from a quick descent and the strength of long fought s
29th Sep 2022 3:55am
Thank you so much.
I'm truly grateful you found me here and that you feel the impact of what I hoped to be able to convey. That's extremely meaningful to me; leaving motivation to skyrocket and inspiration to swell, divine.
This storm is testing my very last nerve, that's for sure .. Thanks again for the well concerned wishes.
Much love and sweetest appreciations,
🌹-B
I'm truly grateful you found me here and that you feel the impact of what I hoped to be able to convey. That's extremely meaningful to me; leaving motivation to skyrocket and inspiration to swell, divine.
This storm is testing my very last nerve, that's for sure .. Thanks again for the well concerned wishes.
Much love and sweetest appreciations,
🌹-B