My Failure and My Savior

I find myself closing my eyes to
Hide the tears flooding them
I have no worth in this world
I'm not tech savvy at all
Dont know all the terms and conditions
Fortunate enough to be loved
Because I dont know where Id be
A rotting ghost somewhere in the afterlife
How do I work all this out?
How can I make my life worth while?
I cant pay my own way right now
Cant afford to keep this body alive
Im failing to meet the criteria
Failing to be qualified to stay alive
Begging for that bullet of love
Like a shot gun pointed at my face
Lodge it right between my eyes
Because your love is the only thing keeping me alive
I wish I could be self reliant; be on my own
But alone in this tech based world Id die
My mind just couldn't survive
Lucky for me I have your love on my side
The antibiotic to the virus that is technology
I feel like a nature spirit stranded
Just drying out on the concrete world
You're my only island in this sea of code
The only thing that makes any damn sense
Im failing at what this life is wanting from me
And youre the only one who makes me feel safe
My life line, you have no idea how much you mean