My life

Angel
Born into a loveless world
I clung to the one thing I knew
My friend called Loneliness
Belief
In myself
That one day I will be loved
By someone who cares
Crave
For love’s touches
A twisted need for approval
Lived on whispered wishes
Deny
The cruelty of my kin
The abuses by parents
Thought of them as concern
Envy
My friends who were loved
Petted and pampered
Kissed and hugged
Follow
My beautiful sisters
To parties
And stood still alone watching
Grow
Into a lonely woman
Introverted, sitting in the room
Within myself
Hope
For someone to rescue me
Tell me I am pretty
Tell me I am loved
Insulate
Myself from hurt
And disappointment
By self-seclusion
Jealous
Of others who are outgoing
Out-spoken
And very daring
Kiss
A boy at thirteen
Fell in love
Straightaway
Love
The boy to distraction
Who died and left
Me on my own
Marry
A man who was on rebound
Died quietly within
Alone again naturally
Numb
For several years
Alone unfeeling
Uncaring
Offend
Others for being obtuse
Nonchalant
Living within myself
Pretend
Everything is alright
I am fine and happy
On my lonesome
Queer
Life people say
She is loony
Maybe a retard
Rise
From doldrums
One day cos
Someone says he loves me
Start
A life I thought I missed
To love and be loved
To be loved and love
Try
To be patient
Lovable, giving
Forgiving, loving
Undo
The fences around my soul
Rip the walls around my heart
Let me see the light
Venture
Into the light
Love, hold, laugh with delight
Thrive for love’s summit
Wonder
At the beauty of a sunset
The joy of a new day
Being held tight
X-
Rated exercise in the night
At dawn, sunlight
Lighting up the lovers entwined
You
Came into my life
Now it’s full
and it’s beautiful
Zenith
I reach it
Culmination of my dream
To live laugh and love