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to be a shade.... of yellow
Fuck~ these hot rolling tears
i hate my desperation
loathsome raw throat closing
this familiar ache
self diagnosed asphyxiation
by my own kindness
i'm certain
pride left in ash
sense of self....
just worthlessness
never enough
an exhausting
pot vs kettle
nonstop beating drum
doomed
in a type of repetitive damnation
constantly seeking
a little bit of revocation
nothingness
alone
my usual state of being
dripping blood
bones broken
pierce skin
in gross protruding
hands missing fingers
ears fallen deaf
no toes on my feet
just imperfect
ugly
and voiceless
Oh how I embrace
my creature
of black
missing tongue
ripped in shreds
muted silence
sharpened razor wire
shorn down my back
millions of paper cuts
sting and sear
every single
little pain
salted shouts
so perfectly clear
hues morph
twisting into a colorful
hated swirl
a mind barely intact
thoughts confuse me
before a fall into unconscious peril
tail spun yellow
that's all I see
how it's saturated
into my very being
through all
of my black
of this unfortunate bleed.
Written by
Bluevelvete
Published 23rd Mar 2021
| Edited 16th Jun 2021
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Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
You mix that yellow with the blue in your eyes and you produce green - Like a spring rebirth from the black soil, new spouting green vegetation.
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 2:53am
Your thoughts are truly appreciated (thank you for the compliment) and I feel the sense of hope you're getting at. There's much kindness within you, Leo. You're a gem 💎
Thank you so much
🌹
xo
Thank you so much
🌹
xo
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 1:07am
Dearest, Lady Blue, I just see beauty. I identify well with the second stanza. I am sad that uou don't better recognize your beauty and what a force for good you are.
The poem is stark, visceral, an awesome use of imagery. Btava, my beautiful friend 💋🐻💋🐻💋🐻
The poem is stark, visceral, an awesome use of imagery. Btava, my beautiful friend 💋🐻💋🐻💋🐻
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 3:04am
Thank you for reading and your thoughtful comments, GW. I am truly hard on myself, I know. We all are, I think. Human nature....and a whole lot of lack of nurture. Yep, a poet who's all fucked up... how novel... lol.
I appreciate you and your time
🌹
x
I appreciate you and your time
🌹
x
Anonymous
- Edited 9th Apr 2022 5:45am
23rd Mar 2021 2:31am
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 2:51am
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 2:54am
Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 2:56am
You ain't kidding, there.
Glad you felt my pain... (I gently kid)...
it's better shared, methinks.
Much appreciations for the visit.
🖤
🌹
Glad you felt my pain... (I gently kid)...
it's better shared, methinks.
Much appreciations for the visit.
🖤
🌹
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 2:56am
You fight the demons inside to be reborn into the light. Keep on writing.
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23rd Mar 2021 2:57am
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 5:20am
Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 5:22am
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 5:37am
Black and yellow(gold) with a bit of white are my favorite color combination ... Ugly is not a word that comes to mind to describe you ever, except only in mood at a moment ... Which we all can fall into ... The loneliness and despair are almost palpable in your words ... Felt and I can relate ... I sense a bit of free flow here ... And send you love and healing ... Bless and much love, Dear Blue ... ..
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 3:38pm
My dearest FeNyX...
You are in tune and understanding of the need to purge and expel that which will only fester and cause havoc... Hence, this spill.
I'm so thankful for your thoughtful comments and my gratitude is enormous...
Much love, and thanks for the healing...
💜 💜 💜
🌹
-B
You are in tune and understanding of the need to purge and expel that which will only fester and cause havoc... Hence, this spill.
I'm so thankful for your thoughtful comments and my gratitude is enormous...
Much love, and thanks for the healing...
💜 💜 💜
🌹
-B
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 6:17am
Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 3:40pm
Hey there Lj,
I'm appreciative of your visit and the thank you for those thoughtful comments.
I'm a fan of yours as well ☺
Much love and respect,
🌹
xo
I'm appreciative of your visit and the thank you for those thoughtful comments.
I'm a fan of yours as well ☺
Much love and respect,
🌹
xo
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 8:12am
To be in despair a world I know well my beautiful friend
Sending hugs and salty kisses from across the pond
Love and light
Ron xx
Sending hugs and salty kisses from across the pond
Love and light
Ron xx
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 3:42pm
Thank youuuuuuu for all that love from across the pond. I'll gladly take it! I appreciate you and the list add... you helped by brightening my day, my lovely friend ... I appreciate that very much!... more than you know!
🌹
💜
-B
🌹
💜
-B
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 2:54pm
This is a very soul-searching poem, tough self-beating; hope it's only a poem and not a state of the amazing Ms. Blue and beautiful Velvet. Hugs, kisses, and peace, oral
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 3:27pm
Hi Oral ;)
I agree, it's an introspective, of sorts, yes. Sometimes it's better to let the darkness that's harboring inside, out. It's best for me, anyway. lol... Emotions that need to be processed, in some weird way and dealt with.... normally find a way to seep out onto my page. I thank you for reading and leaving your thoughtful sentiments. I'm ok, really.
Much love,
🌹
xo
I agree, it's an introspective, of sorts, yes. Sometimes it's better to let the darkness that's harboring inside, out. It's best for me, anyway. lol... Emotions that need to be processed, in some weird way and dealt with.... normally find a way to seep out onto my page. I thank you for reading and leaving your thoughtful sentiments. I'm ok, really.
Much love,
🌹
xo
Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 3:31pm
So thankful my Princess is okay, only expressing what we all can express in freeing our closets of old frustrations, pain, and maybe guilt. Hugs, kisses, and peace, oral
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23rd Mar 2021 3:32pm
Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 3:57pm
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 4:56pm
I have never suffered from depression, but it must feel as if being strangled.
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 5:07pm
I can only imagine how it feels not to have outlets to purge it all, in a healthy manner, when it's pressing upon..... You're lucky, Adagio.
It's definitely akin, yes... for me, it's about getting a handle on if before it envelopes....lessons learned over years.
Thank you for reading and leaving your thoughts, I'm appreciative 🙏
🌹
x
It's definitely akin, yes... for me, it's about getting a handle on if before it envelopes....lessons learned over years.
Thank you for reading and leaving your thoughts, I'm appreciative 🙏
🌹
x
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 5:32pm
Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
You honor me sir... That's high praise coming from you and I'm humbly appreciative 🙏
🌹
sincerely,
-x
🌹
sincerely,
-x
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
Anonymous
23rd Mar 2021 6:54pm
Burned angels, fallen
My black wraps around yours and we are a lurid thing together. Our broken voices scream in their twin desperation, a chorus of wails that even banshee's run in fear from .
My black wraps around yours and we are a lurid thing together. Our broken voices scream in their twin desperation, a chorus of wails that even banshee's run in fear from .
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
24th Mar 2021 00:37am
A united wail of intemperate darkness, billows..
Each dark sister recognizes her reflection in the other. Within their obsidian ether, slowly their wails and cries turn to beatific, slow gothic music....
It's tone and timbre, exquisitely gorgeous — as their combination, is more than and pure, otherworldly.
🖤 🥀 🖤
xoxo
Each dark sister recognizes her reflection in the other. Within their obsidian ether, slowly their wails and cries turn to beatific, slow gothic music....
It's tone and timbre, exquisitely gorgeous — as their combination, is more than and pure, otherworldly.
🖤 🥀 🖤
xoxo
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
23rd Mar 2021 8:22pm
Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
24th Mar 2021 00:14am
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
24th Mar 2021 2:52am
Searingly powerful darkness painted with words that burn. I felt your suffering. You really got into the core of dark writing and spilled your pain with grand and strong poetry.
Xo
John
Xo
John
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
To be felt by words is to be truly be known.
My smile is sweet and now ear to ear.. it's the darkness that's telling and some of the most interesting and informative, so I'm glad you could get a sense. So appreciative of everything, my dear You've been too too kind tonight!!
I'm overwhelmed, Thank you
💜
xoxo
My smile is sweet and now ear to ear.. it's the darkness that's telling and some of the most interesting and informative, so I'm glad you could get a sense. So appreciative of everything, my dear You've been too too kind tonight!!
I'm overwhelmed, Thank you
💜
xoxo
Anonymous
- Edited 23rd May 2024 11:45am
24th Mar 2021 12:06pm
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
I'm still giggling @ "off your tits"... it's slang I'm so not privy too, but totally love and now will probably go out of my way to try and incorporate it into as many conversations as possible... heh heh heh 😜
I'm in agreement with you, Ethan, that everything can't or shouldn't be rainbows and butterflies all the time, cos I'd beat my head against the wall if that's all there was!! I'm dark by nature, so that butterfly side is actually more difficult to convey for me, but easier to write out (I know oxymoron!) because it's been ingrained in my 48 years that, that is what's more "soluble" even when I can relate to and click with the deep seeded toil and trouble we can all spew black, at times...
I utterly thank you for getting that. 🖤
Not sure if it's courage but I'll take that awesome compliment, my friend... I needed it!
lol.
Love seeing you back...
... it was a highlight today!!
🌹
xo - 🐝
I'm in agreement with you, Ethan, that everything can't or shouldn't be rainbows and butterflies all the time, cos I'd beat my head against the wall if that's all there was!! I'm dark by nature, so that butterfly side is actually more difficult to convey for me, but easier to write out (I know oxymoron!) because it's been ingrained in my 48 years that, that is what's more "soluble" even when I can relate to and click with the deep seeded toil and trouble we can all spew black, at times...
I utterly thank you for getting that. 🖤
Not sure if it's courage but I'll take that awesome compliment, my friend... I needed it!
lol.
Love seeing you back...
... it was a highlight today!!
🌹
xo - 🐝
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
30th Mar 2021 4:07pm
Each line, describing a mutilated part expresses a deep pain many of us cannot imagine. Your talent at detailing this sheds a light on the darkness and gloom.
Excellent work.
Excellent work.
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I am ohh soo glad that you can relate and see this one for what it is, Walter. I am grateful for those kind words as well.
Much love,
🌹
x
Much love,
🌹
x
Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
9th Oct 2021 5:49am
I just voted for this poem in the Darkness comp, it was still up for vote, and when I went to page two, it said this was the winner declared, I guess my vote must have triggered it somehow to close the voting. Any way congrats !! :) really edgy but beautiful at the same time, and love the picture :)
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Re: Re. to be a shade.... of yellow
9th Oct 2021 7:16pm
Thanks so much for vote, PR.... How fortunate and cool 😎, was that!! Awesome.
So glad you enjoyed it, this darkness isn't my usual, so your comments, generous list add and insightfulness is doubly appreciated... lol.
With humble gratitude,
🌹 - 💙
B
So glad you enjoyed it, this darkness isn't my usual, so your comments, generous list add and insightfulness is doubly appreciated... lol.
With humble gratitude,
🌹 - 💙
B